<b>Dorinda, Thanks for posting to my pg. I know exactly how you feel. But you have to just think positive. It's good you checked out the memorial pg. It is a shame but we need to just have faith and think positive thoughts. I think I went there twice and then just prayed about it. once I did this I felt at peace going into the surgery.The way I see it. God has our life in his hands anyhow, so weather you do or don't, if it's your time, it doesn't matter were you are at or what your doing. It will happen. Anyhow Your feelings are all normal. I had little time to even think about it. There was a cancellation and I jumped to it. giving me 3 days to get going. Im happy I did have this surgery, I had NO complications, I have loss 146 lbs in 10 months and I feel great. So try to continue to think positive and this will help you get through. **Hugs**</b>