Mary,
I pray that your surgery will be uneventfull, that you will heal on schedule and your new life will be a healthy one. Don't worry about not knowing that person inside of you. You'll know her, she has been waiting in your heart. She wants to be free and be the person she was intended to be. May you fly with her and be free. I am waiting for my person to heal so that we can begin fly. It is kind of scary, but also very exciting. The very best.