12-22-03 today i went and had my first fill i was scared ,excited,and was wondering how it would go .
well i got there and then i had too check in and wait for them too come too get me . then i went back and had too take out my shirt. and put on a gown . then she checked my signs i am ok . so then we went too the room and dr. duckett was there and two nurses was there too and i had too wait for the man that brings in the camra too xray you why there are doing it . then the dr. had me lay down and i had to hold up my legs so he could see where the port was and he found it . then he numbed it and then put a needle in the port it took him two times too get the hold and then i had too stand up . and get in front of the xray machine so they could see my insides too do the ajustment i think it cool too see my ind\sides . and then i had too drink bariem drink so he could see it was working and then water then he put 2ccs in and had me drink and i had to get full and then i told him i was full and felt like i had too throw up so he said i will take care of that and he took out hale of cc so it was down too 1.5 ccs and it was ok then . so then he made me do it again he put it back 2ccs again and i drank again and it happened againg so he took it out again and he said well that is all i can put in . so i have 1.5 ccs in right now . and when i got done i was a little dizzy so i had too sit down .i was ok after about 5 mins. then i went back and got dressed and went home . i had a cup of tea and after half of a cup i was full. had stop . boy you relly can feel the differents . right now . i relly had too think about this doing it before xmas but i look at it this way i dont need all that food a round me too be with poeple i love .i can have a good xmas any ways .