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Well, this morning I weighed 250 lbs!! I am sooo excited!! I know it's still a lot, but for me it's amazing. I haven't weighed that in YEARS!! Over the weekend my husband and I took our 3-year-old little girl to a carnival and you know what? I FIT on the ride with both of them. That was such a high in itself!  I haven't been able to fit on a ride in YEARS either! And it made it all that more special to be able to do it with my little girl and husband. I'm still worried that I will stop losing weight, I don't know why I worry about it so much, I guess it's because it just seems too good to be true. I am so excited about talking to people who want to have the surgery that I think I come off as pushy, but I'm not. I'm just SO excited with my results, it really is life changing and SOOO worth it!  (for all of you considering it)  :) Here's to staying on the "loser's bench"!!

Well, I had my 4-month check-up on Thursday and have lost 117 lbs to date. My Dr is really excited for me but with the usual instructions of more excercise. I am sooo happy!  Yesterday I bought some jeans that are size 20  (in November I was a TIGHT size 28). And these jeans fit comfortably. I just hope I keep losing. I already feel like a new person. I feel "normal" for the first time in years! I can fit into a seat at the movie theater! I can walk easily. I can keep up with my 3-year-old. I still have about 90 lbs to go to goal, but I sure feel great. This surgery saved my life! And definitely upped the quality of it too. I finally feel "normal".

Friday the 13th!! lol  Well this week has been busy, I hit a plateau there for a while but I am finally losing again. I weighed yesterday at 261-- it's still a lot, but considering I WAS 374 just a few short months ago. 
I go in on Thursday the 19th of April for my 4-month check-up.  
I feel great--- I still have some issues like I want certain foods, but just little tastes are fine and they satisfy cravings most of  the time.

I've lost only 4 lbs in the last 2 weeks... but that's better than gaining!  Anyway, I've hit a plateau-- I KNOW it's because I need to ramp up my exercise. Yesterday I actually noticed my "bat arms".... hanging skin from my upper arms. It looks pretty funny, but hey, I don't care right now. I'm feeling better than I have in years and I'm just getting smaller and smaller, which is A-okay with me. I am fitting into clothes that have been put away in the back, back, back of my closet! It's pretty exciting! Things I never thought I'd wear again, and I am! Now it's time to get rid of the clothes that are literally hanging off of me.  It's hard, I almost feel a tie to them, for some reasong I haven't put them in a bag and given them away yet. It's strange, like I'm afraid to let them go, which is just silly. I NEED to do it! I think I will do it today!  I mean, I wore a pair of pants yesterday (my "good" black dress pants) and they were so big that even though I had them rolled at the waist, they still dragged on the ground. Come on Aaryn, get with it, NO ONE looks good dressed like that!  lol.... 
Anyway, I also have moved from "super obese" category to just "obese" which is sooo cool! I haven't been there in years either!  Baby steps. Not so say that it's not hard... I fight a battle every day with what I WANT to eat and what I SHOULD eat. It sucks! Yesterday was a BAAADDDD day... I ate chocolate candies and then felt really sick for a couple hours... then I ate so much for dinner that I was really uncomfortalbe for a few hours too. WHY do I DO these things????   See, it really IS half mental battle... I KNOW it's gonna make me sick, I KNOW it's gonna hurt me, really hurt... and yet I do it anyway..... WHY?  I need to seriously get myself back on track and stop trying to push it with everything.  I will do better today... and tomorrow... etc.

Yesterday I joined the Century Club!!!  100 lbs gone forever!!!!!!!!!!  I still have 104 to go for goal--- practically halfway there!!! I feel great!!  Yesterday I got the results of my labs I had done last week and all my B12 and Iron and everything was good, but my thyroid level was at 59!!!!!!!  It's NEVER been that high!!  No wonder I've been soooo tired all the time.  Hopefully my new dose will help it... last time when I got tested in September I was at like a 3 I think. Now 59.... yikes!  Anyway, I will write more later... I just wanted to update. I've been really sick this past week too with a nasty cold. Finally tried Nyquil and got drunk... lol But at least it helped my stuffy nose and sore throat. Now my poor little girl has my cold!

Stepped on the scale this morning and it said 278--- I just hope it keeps going down, down, down... lol  I am learning to chew a little better. It's funny, but before WLS I always wanted to feel full... I would eat and eat and eat and never feel REALLY full. Now I take a few bites and I am so full it hurts... being full is not a pleasant feeling.. but I am so grateful to have had my surgery because it is allowing me to lose weight and to recognize when I am full. It's just not pleasurable to eat anymore... which is fine-- it's teaching me to "eat to live" not "live to eat". I bought a pair of jeans last week-- I had to, I didn't have anymore that fit-- and now they are a little loose. It's pretty exciting.
I have 4 more lbs to go before I hit my first hundred pounds since my journey began in November, 2006!!!  I am soooo excited! This is the best thing I have done for myself!!  Two days ago at my PCP office he calculated my BMI and it's now 40. something... I started at like 56 BMI.  Sometimes I feel sad that I can't eat everything I want and some days in my head I'm like-- I want to eat that WHOLE pizza!  But I don't even take a bite because I know I will pay for it. But most days I am just fine-- I think it's normal  to think like that when my whole life I've had such an issue with food. 

Stepped on the scale this morning and I am at 287.4 !!!   Yayyy!!! I don't think  I've weighed that in about 4 years. I'm feelin' good and just taking it easy... I figure as long as I drink my protein shakes then I'm ok... salad seems to go down pretty easily too. I'm in no hurry to eat lots of different foods, and definitely don't want to stretch my pouch. Sometimes I feel sad that I can't eat everything I want, but then I just look in the mirror and think about how I feel and it's all good.  :)

Stepped on the scale this morning... 291.4   I am sooo happy! I feel better and better every day!!! I am definitely on my way. We ate at Olive Garden last night and I had some salad (mmmmmm) and some grilled chicken breast and broccoli.... I did ok. I have been kinda scared to eat solid food after what happened last week. 
Anyway, feelin' pretty good-- just realizing that a few years ago I would've thought that 291 was the hugest weight in the world, no way could I ever weigh THAT!!  Of course now, compared to 374, I am really happy to weigh 291-- so long as it just keeps going down lol.  I'm supposed to be excercising a lot, but between work and my daughter and life I am having a really hard time fitting it in! I know I have to figure out something because I can't just keep putting it off.  I think I'll try to find a gym or something and can work out before I go pick my girl up from daycare. It's really bummin' me out. But, I will make it work! I went so far to have the surgery and went through a lot, I need to make it all worth it!! 

Uggghhh!!!  Today I learned what true pain is!! lol  I was miserable and throwing up for 2 hours!!  I thought I was going to have to go to the hospital--- burning in my chest and knots in my stomach and puking up foam (what's up with THAT?)  I think it's as simple as I didn't chew my food well enough and I ate red meat for the first time... wonder if I can't tolerate that yet...  anyway, all of a sudden all the pain was gone. I hope I didn't do any damage to my pouch. I feel fine now, hopefully it was just a warning. Anyone who is about to start solids heed this: MAKE SURE YOU CHEW, CHEW, CHEW or you will PAY, PAY, PAY~!!  lol... no, REALLY!   I never want to feel like that again!!  
As of today I have lost 80 lbs since November!!!!   Yay!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Wow, sorry I haven't written in so long. I am a florist and the week before and the week of Valentine's Day is just crazy busy for me!
Anyway, went and saw Dr Weber last Thurs for my 7-week check-up. He said everything looks great, but he wants me to ramp up my excercise. I just don't understand how I'm going to do that, so I'm a little bummed about it. My husband works nights and I work during the day. There's no one to watch my baby while I go to the gym. Oh well, in a few days I may not have a job anymore anyway since I have asked for a substantial raise to what I believe I'm WORTH or I won't work there anymore. They're paying me almost half of what they were paying me before I moved 4 years ago. I don't understand how my value went down. So, either it my pay goes up quite a bit or I will stop working there and mabye go back to school or just be a stay-at-home mommy... either way is fine with me at this point. It's not worth me paying someone to raise my kid while I work for peanuts! 
Anyway, enough about all that!  Let's get down to the nitty-gritty; I am sooooo happy!  I am under 300 lbs now!!! Yay!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I weighed myself this morning and I am 295.4 lbs.  I haven't been that weight in 3 years!!!  SOooo, I was 357 at surgery--- and now I am 295... in 8 weeks I have lost 62 lbs.... although, when I started this whole journey in the very beginning of November I weighed 374 lbs... so since November I have lost  a total of 79 lbs!!!!!  It feels great!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I started on solid foods finally and am having a difficult time... it must just take some time to adjust. More later!!