Lori A.

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As of December 22nd I"m a single gal.  Roger is history.  Dave is still here though so I may be single but still taken - happily  :)

be safe on your journeys... I"m still losing for some odd reason.  Am the poster child for Jay though so I guess all's good.  down to 143 this morning.  Haven't weighed this since grade school... early grade school... amazing.

*hugs*

I'm not around here much if at all anymore... Just wanted to post for my own referance though... qas 150 this morning again.  I"m holding steady even though I can eat the damnest things... stupid sugar.  I still don't dump but do get the foamies.

Protein is still an issue and I think always will be.
water is hard to get down
I forget my vitamins but do eat a good variety of foods.

Roger is history as soon as the coart system turns him loose.  enough of his shit.  I"m tired of hauling that much dead weight around after loosing damn near that in myself. Good bye.

Single is ok... Dave is nicer though  :)  Life is interesting - no one recognises me.  My own cousin hit on me in the bar  lol  I'm wearing short skirts and heels - slinky tops and smiles  :)  Life is pretty good over all

Hope everyone is doing well on their own journeys.  Take time to enjoy yourself and the roses...  Look around and don't foget where you came from and have compassion for those who are still back there.

*hugs*

I hit goal today.  MY goal.  Jay figured I'd make it to about 180 and figured that for his goal...  150 has been MY goal all along though.

I cried when I looked at the scale... 150.0  holy shit.  lol  Thank you Jay for giving me my life back... for letting me find me....

wow

I'm going to take measurements  just for S&G

Area                               starting                                                                              current              
                                       Oct         Dec        Feb         Apr        June      July     January '09
BUST                            62.5        55          51.5        46.5      45          43                   38
RIB CAGE                    54.5        48          43           40.5      39         37.5                 34.5
WAIST                           57.5       52.5       49.5        45         43         42.5                 36 
HIPS                              56          52.5       50.5        44         43         42.5                 39
UPPER THIGH            29          26.5       25.5        23.5      22.5      22                    20 
ABOVE THE KNEE     19          18           17.5       16.5      16         16                    14.75
BELOW THE KNEE    14         13.5        13.25    12.75    12.5      12.5                 12
CALF                             16          14.75      15          14         13.75    14                   13  
NECK                            17.75     16           15.75     14.75    14.25   14.75            13.25
UPPER ARM                17           16.75      15.75    15           14        14                  12 
FOREARM                    11.5         11           10.5      10           10       10                   9.5 
WRIST                            7              6.75        6.5        6.5          6.25    6.25               6.25

I look at myself in the mirror now and see a difference... a size difference and a self confidence difference... I didn't think that would show in the mirror but it does.  I smile and my eyes are more open and accepting.

I'm willing to do more - to put myself out there.  Like dressing up for the DJ show.  I would never have done that heavy.  Much less stood up and danced in front of 50 people.

Yesterday I went out on the web looking at various plastic surgeries...  I just don't know though if it's something I should do.  My arms bother me...  but is it enough to go through surgery again?  I won't do it with Saldana though.  I think I would go to the Cities... 

The girls are another matter though.  They will be done!  I started this journey in a 46DD bra...  I'm now in a 36DDD  so they gain volumn when you have to roll them up??  good grief. 

I figure if I cry to my PCP that my shoulders hurt and my back is always sore I can get them reduced a little bit and have them perked up...  Insurance should go for it then.
I'm not sure that I'm comfy with the attention... being called beautiful is still so foreign to me.  ok Roger always said it and still says he doesn't comment on the weight loss because he never saw the fat... he saw me.  It is a nice thing... damn the man for having some nice traits... if he was a total ass this would be easier...

I'm heading back to the neurologist and probably back to the MRI again...  My balance is off and my left side is getting weaker and weaker...  I can't go a mile anymore without my left foot dragging and that makes me fall...  Bill told me if I lost weight that it would take the pressure off and I would be better...  I'm getting worse the more I lose  :(  and he retired...  so I"m scared... again...  are the vertibrae growing back together again?  the PSP that dad died from?  what is it this time??  *cry*

ok enough rambling... it helps to get it out though.  I guess we shall see...  and I need pics of me in that 70s getup  lol

Area                               starting                                                         current              
                                       Oct         Dec        Feb         Apr        June      July
BUST                            62.5        55          51.5        46.5      45          43                  
RIB CAGE                    54.5        48          43           40.5      39         37.5                  
WAIST                           57.5       52.5       49.5        45         43         42.5                  
HIPS                              56          52.5       50.5        44         43         42.5                  
UPPER THIGH            29          26.5       25.5        23.5      22.5      22                     
ABOVE THE KNEE     19          18           17.5       16.5      16         16                     
BELOW THE KNEE    14         13.5        13.25    12.75    12.5      12.5
CALF                             16          14.75      15          14         13.75    14                     
NECK                            17.75     16           15.75     14.75    14.25   14.75           
UPPER ARM                17           16.75      15.75    15           14        14                    
FOREARM                    11.5         11           10.5      10           10       10                    
WRIST                            7              6.75        6.5        6.5          6.25    6.25

Measurements for July...  it's been a  while again and my shorts are getting loose!  I haven't lost that much weight lately so I suspected that the inches were going and I was right.  I've been walking my butt off - literally!  And to think 8 months ago I couldn't walk to the mailbox with out a break to catch my breath... I now go 2-3miles at a pretty good clip and would go further if the nerves would let me!  I just have to be careful not to push too hard so my left side doesn't give out!

Area                                 starting                  current               lost
BUST                                 62.5                        43                      19.5
RIB CAGE                         54.5                        37.5                   17
WAIST                                57.5                        42.5                   15
HIPS                                   56                           42.5                   13.5
UPPER THIGH                 29                           22                       7
ABOVE THE KNEE          19                           16                       3
BELOW THE KNEE         14                           12.5                   1.5
CALF                                  16                            14                      2 
NECK                                 17.75                      14.75                3 
UPPER ARM                     17                            14                      3
FOREARM                         11.5                         10                     1.5
WRIST                                7                               6.25                 .75

wow...  I need to make a comparison chart.

Area                                 starting                  current               lost
BUST                                 62.5                        46.5                  16
RIB CAGE                         54.5                        40.5                  14
WAIST                                57.5                        45                     12.5
HIPS                                   56                           44                     12
UPPER THIGH                 29                           23.5                   5.5
ABOVE THE KNEE          19                           16.5                   2.5
BELOW THE KNEE         14                           12.75                1.25
CALF                                  16                            14                      2
NECK                                 17.75                      14.75                3
UPPER ARM                     17                            15                      2
FOREARM                         11.5                         10                     1.5
WRIST                                7                               6.5                    .5

I am actually at times seeing some of these changes.  I look at my arm when I'm doing something and am amazed at the size of my wrist.  I've never been able to have pretty bracelets because my wrist was so large... now I can wear them  :)

It's time for new pictures...

I'm feeling the effects of some of the loss though... my butt cheeks are sagging!!  Need to get on that bowflex again as soon as I'm released. 

The upper arm wave should be nice this summer... surprising the breeze that gets going with that flap!  lol

A few things going into the second half of this first year of my new life...

I am in the process of being fired from my job.  I am confident that what is supposed to happen, will and everything will fall into place.  I may not being working there but life has a way of working out for the best.

Brianna, my daughter, will be having my newest grandson Dominic in June.  I can hardly wait  :)

Brett, my son, seems to be coming around and has actually kept his job.

Roger still isn't working... I'm not sure how much longer I can continue this relationship.  He manages to have money for his smokes without a job... and the grandkid's state quarter collections are missing... *cry*  I don't want to think the worst but he's lied to me for years... but to steal from your grandkids??  This is the cause of most of my stress...  How to end 15 years of a marriage...  when we are best friends... but I keep saying that best friends don't treat each other this way.  *cry*

I think I should be surgery free - I've had a couple now so that seems to be the rule  :)

I fully well intend to go out and grab what I can from life.  It's MY turn to laugh and be happy and let someone else take care of things for a while.  I'm going to lay in the sun, chat with my friends and be damned the whole rest of the mess.

*hugs*

My poor boobs!!!  lol  Reminds me of the witch in wiz of oz!  lol

That is really a ton of inches though... and the sizes are coming down as well.  Pants are comfy at size 14.  I"ll be trying on a 12 soon though  :)

I'm so used to wearing my clothes tight, this all feels really strange.

And even though I've lost what seems like tons on top, the sizes aren't changing as drastically as the bottom.

I need to get back on that bowflex.  I really do miss it but with this pain I just can't see struggling through it.  Although, maybe that is what I need.  I just can't imagine working on it when I'm having trouble even walking.

OK, here's the measurements.  WOOHOO!!

Area          current     lost
BUST        48    -14.5
RIB CAGE    41.5    -13
WAIST        46    -11.5
HIPS        46    -10
UPPER THIGH    24    -5
ABOVE THE KNEE    16.25    -2.75
BELOW THE KNEE    13    -1
CALF        14.5    -1.5
NECK        15    -2.75
UPPER ARM    15    -2
FOREARM        10.25    -1.25
WRIST        6.5    -.5

wow....  8lbs last week!  nice  :)

I'm finally over half way there!!  I say finally like I've been doing this forever but I haven't and I really need to realize that!!

It was a great weekend meeting new folks and maybe we can get something going up north here for meetings and stuff!  What fun!!

I need to dig out that suede skirt I was chattering about...  lol  I think I'll try a pair of 16s today...  you never know!!

Off to my date with Master Bowflex!

Like it says, I'm 4 months out today and I'm down 71 lbs.  Not too shabby!  I and my doctors are all pleased with the loss although I have to admit that I envy those who have lost so much more in the same time.  I do understand we are different though blah blah blah  lol

I've gone from a size 28 pant the day of surgery to anything from a 16-20.  17 seems to fit the best but don't those kids have butts???!! 

My top isn't changing much though and that is a bit frustrating.  I must have worn my shirts tight 4 months ago.  I've lost tons of inches... so that is all that I can figure out.

Speaking of inches... here's the run down for you and for me to look at  :)

and yeah I know.. nothing lines up... deal with it!  :)

AREA         STARTING      CURRENT         LOST
Bust              62.5      51      -11.5
Rib Cage      54.5      42.5   -12
Waist            57.5      49         -8.5
Hips            56         48         -8
Upper Thigh      29     25.5      -3.5
Just above the Knee      19      17      -2
Just below the Knee      14      13      -1
Calf         16      14.75      -1.25
Neck      17.75      15.75      -2
Upper Arm      17      15.25      -1.75
Forearm      11.5      10.5      -1
Wrist      7      6.5      -.5

That's a lot of inches  :)  Funny thing - I lost so much off my bra band size but went UP a cup size...  I didn't need it!  lol

Like many I'm having trouble seeing the loss even though I know it's there.  I think this stems from the fact that I never saw myself as fat as I was... I think my mind padded me (or UN-padded as it were) so I wouldn't hate myself for where I had landed.

I'm looking at pictures and everything and my therapist says to cloak the mirrors and just see the pictures.  Maybe I need new pics again.  I'll have Brie do that for me. 

Guess that's it for now...  more next time - off to pet puppies!