angelique1
August
7 th.2009. 5 more pounds added in one month. i need hELP. Serious Help and I feel like I'm Starving
today is july 22.2009. my surgery date was november 1,2005. I never lost under 220. I am now in the state of WASHINGTON and this past 6 months I have spent sedentary due to the constant cold and rain. I gained 15 lbs. I am having knee reolacement surgery August 3rd. I want a pouch surgery revision,but haven't looked into it yet. I got disgusted and this past nmonth ate whatever i wanted. I can do that now within reason. I had been sticking to the veggies and protein religiously but the 15 pound gain sparked a destructive pattern regression.
!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!NOVEMBER 1,2005!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Yippee!! Hee Hee Ha Ha Smile and say cheese. I am finally gonna get this . Amen. Whew. Thats how I am feeling folks. I am writing this down so I can read it back to myself later. I want to remember how miserable I have been living in my body. Feet hurt non stop, Knees hurt non stop. Not a day comes that I am not in pain and I have had to resolve myself to living this way forever. I got angry with a therapist who was so thin and so meanwell that she asked me if I'd ever seen many real old fat people. She was implying that they die before getting old. It pissed me off and I still
am probably in denial about the answer. I have actually tried to live as though nothing was wrong. I love and except myself and
do my make up and keep a happy cheerfulness ,made jokes and did anything I wanted to (within reason) inspite of my weight. I say I don't really mind being fat, I am just afraid of getting progressively fatter. Without any provocation my set point just raises itself every few years with no end in sight, like I could become 4,5,600 pounds . I can't even afford the food it takes to achieve such goals. And if I could buy it I couldn't eat that much. Yet I see it coming because this 350 came slow and steady over the years. thank God it is over. It is truly a new lease on life and I plan to take good advantage of it. Thank you Jesus and Any other Gods
who are making this possible . Amen
august2007. Cannot lose anymore. did not reach goal. anguish
February 2,2006
Three month check-in point. I am doing well, five pounds from my first goal of 50 pounds. ultimate goal is 150ish. so I am one fourth down. I am getting used to the new stomach configuration ,drinking more water. still working on the protien.
march 24,2003
finally made it below the 300 mark. 295 today. pleased with the steady slow pace. 60 pounds in 4 1/2 months. sounds good to me.
May1,2006
down 75 pounds. Reached one of those spots where the weight ain't moving down like it used to. getting scared that might be all I lose. thats scary caus I am no where near final goal and still 30 lbs from short term goal . I am increasing my exercise and although I am able to eat more now, I don't. I do have a vice that my body does not reject and that is watermelon. I am craving it morning noon and night. SCARY! ok ok new rule .no more melons in this house. walk even more. gotta do it.
I am not losing hair but have never been able to get in the protien. I have never eaten meat. A little chicken now and then. I don't like fish. A little canned tuna on occassion. I absolutely despise those powders and shakes. they have milk in them or they taste too sweet and milky. Hate vanilla ,chocolate , and strawberry. Am I a lost protien cause. I eat vegetables(I am not a vegan or veggie). mostly leafy greens,okra,tomatoes,squash ,onions,carrots, yams. My weakness is white potatoes and breads. I don't eat much of either because I will overeat them. I drink (lemon)water. unsweet tea, nothing else. I becme the worlds fattest finicky eater. I cannot eat sweets anymore ,which is good,lost my craving for them thank fully.I'm taking the vitamin suppliments also.I guess my pouch has healed or stretched or something . I used to feel it. noe I don't anymore. I have pay attention now. I kinda got used to the work beinfg done for me. I will recover because I did not go though all this to fail.
july 3,2006
268 lbs from 354, 86 lbs gone. Getting loose skin , but I do not care. 14lbs fron first goal. 100 from final goal. I am losing slowly but steadily. I look funny to myself now.
August 30,2006
HAPPY CENTURY TO ME! 100 pounds down! !!!!!!!!!!!!!!
November 13,2006
I must have gotten too cocky with my hundred pounds, I haven't lost since. well actually I did 4 pds then it went back up4. so basically I an just rocking right now. I'll admit it I did attempt on more than one occasion to consume sweets. Pie. the season puts a lot of that in front of my face and I tried to eat it. Felt terrible ,but kept trying,It's like I haven't learned a thing in the past year. Dumb. I am back on track again now. hope I get at least ten more off before Christmas. It has been slow going for me most months but it all averaged out to about 8 a month. I still want to lose another 90-100.
