AnnaNicole921
It's been a couple of years since I've been on this site. Reason being, I didn't have insurance that covered the surgery. A lot has changed! I finished grad school in August of 2008 and now have an MBA. I no longer work in sales and I work for a great govt contracting company, SAIC. Fortunately the insurance there ROCKS and there are no exlcusions on weight loss surgery. I almost cried, actually I did cry, when the rep on the phone told me that it IS covered!
I not only finished school, landed a new job, but I moved to the city of West Ashley where I am a lot happier and just 5 minutes from work! Last but not least, I have a wonderful boyfriend that just adores me and I love him so much. He is really supportive of my decision and I am so happy to have met him. Meeting him and accepting me for the way I look and yet still wanting the surgery tells me a lot. I am doing this for my future, for OUR future. I want to be healthy, live a long life and be able to have a family with James. I know I wouldn't have any of that if I continue to carry this extra weight.
I've been oveweight to obese since I was about 7. Now I am morbidly obese and it makes me cringe thinking how I got this way. I have been looking into weight loss surgery since I was 20, around the time that Carnie Wilson had it done. At the time, my mother didn't think it was safe and didn't think I needed it. She was convinced that I could do it on my own and to, "just use willpower" for over-eating. Well at the time I was 6'1ft tall and about 320lbs. It's nearly 10 years later and I'm up to 394....I really debated whether or not I should put the honest to god true weight for sake of embarassment and disgust with myself, but I'm glad I just did. I want others who are in the same boat to be comfortable admitting how much they are too--and so that everyone can see my progress! Let's see....my BMI is currently 52. I currently wear size 26/28, but feel like I could comfortably wear a 30/32 due to the weight gain...AGAIN. The odd thing is that for about 2-3 years I have stablized around 365-375 and in the last 2 mons I have put on nearly 20 more lbs. TWENTY! This surgery couldn't have come at a better time.
A little more about me and my eating habits. I'm not a junk food eater. Sure I have definitely eaten the bad foods such as fried, sugary stuff, but over all, I'm a pretty healthy food and know a lot about nutrition. My problem? I eat way too much of everything, including the good stuff. I have major issues with portion control and sometimes even binge eating. I'm not sure what it is or where it comes from, but I'm sure my psych evaluation will help confirm where it comes from. I am also the type of person who gets so wrapped up into something that I forget to eat or push food off. Yep, I actually put eating on the backburner so I don't get "interrupted" from whatver I'm doing....can you believe it? So what happens next is that my blood sugar gets so low that I want to vomit and I'm so hungry that I want to eat everything in sight! Not only is this harmful, but I also don't snack. My food journal consists of mainly lunch and dinner. I'm a terrible snacker! I would rather have 1 or 2 large meals then have 5 or 6 small meals and that is something I need to learn to change.
Thanks for reading this and today I'm going to start my first post since the process towards surgery is 1 day closer! Good luck to all of you trying to get this and to those that are currently changing their lives!
