Asacket
25 more days!
Oct 27, 2009
I have 25 more days until my surgery! I am so excited I can't even stand it! I have complied so much information and "cheat sheets" for every step of the way! I feel so prepared but I know that there will be somethings I can't be prepared for!I begin my full liquid diet in 12 days and I have my last doctors appointment 2 weeks from yesterday! I am going to try my very best on my liquid diet. I know that it will be hard and trying but I need to pull through it because I know it will only help my success in the long run. I am so happy to have such a supportive group of friends and family.
It has been difficult for me to tell people about my surgery. I have told all of my imitate friends and class mates. I have told my professors that I am having surgery and I plan to only tell one fully about what kind of surgery.
Sometimes I feel...
Embarrassed to tell people who I know wont really understand
If I tell them they will realize how big I really am (I am sure they already know) but it brings it more attention to me I guess
Frustrated that now I know that I am having surgery, I don't want to do anything social.. because I want to scream just wait until I am skinny! You wont look at me like that then! I feel very uncomfortable in my own skin much more than I have ever felt.
Lonely that I wont have my love Jake by my side. Jake and I have been dating for 4 years. I love him with all of my heart! However, he left for the army and boot camp in early September and I will not see him until after my surgery. I get sad because he is not here to learn and go through this process by my side. I have been sending him my information and telling him as much as I can but it's not the same as if he was here with me... So I am battling through that and knowing when he comes back he will be with me and support me with anything.
Happy that I told my best friend that I am having surgery. I was afraid that he would be mad or not understand. He's actually my ex boyfriend whom I love very much and is one of the most important people in my life. I pride myself on still being very close to all of my ex boyfriends. He lives in my home town and I rarely get to see him and I couldn't tell him on the phone. He will be with me during my hospital stay and be one of my biggest supporters. He was so cute though, he said "you wont look like my Ashley anymore" He is my solid rock, when I am having a problem trying to figure out myself all I have to do is look at him and talk with him and I find me.
Today I decide that with my surgery coming up I want to concentrate on my weight loss and health and not be so stressed with class work. So I dropped one of my Zoology courses which lightens my load significantly so I hope it will be worth it!
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About Me
Perrysburg , OH
Location
24.8
BMI
Surgery
11/24/2009
Surgery Date
Surgeon
Sep 29, 2009
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