aubreydb
Moving Along
Feb 26, 2009
Thirteen more pounds and I will have a "normal" BMI. Insane. Somebody told me I look like a little kid now. Somebody told me I was looking good and have a very nice shape. Me? I feel the same. Well, I feel different, but I feel like me. I feel more like me than I did at over 250 pounds. Does that make sense at all?I have not told a whole lot of people that I had RNY. I'm sure some guess, especially those that see me on a weekly basis. My family knows, to a certain extent, so do my friends and a few people my family has blabbed to. :) But I'm not open and obvious about it. I don't declare myself from rooftops. I'm just getting on with my life.
I'm in a new class this semester. Just one, my last until I graduate and transfer. I am treated like everyone else and I blend in. Ok, well, my personality is starting to shine through, I'm a little strange. :P It dawned on me several weeks ago that none of these people in this class with me everyday, this rather small evening class, has ever known me any way but as I am right now at this moment. It's a speech class so we talk a lot. There was a woman a couple of weeks ago, when we were supposed to just read something, decided to talk to us about her deceased father and the legal stresses that have followed. It was totally cool and I, at least, am glad she got that off of her chest and trusted us enough to let us into a little part of her life. Having said this, I thought a long time about the topic I would give for my informative speech. We're supposed to talk about something we know about. Well, what has my life been pretty much all about for the past almost nine months? So I kept coming back to the topic of WLS and I wrote my speech. It's just a short one but I will, towards the end, reveal that I have had surgery as well. I wouldn't have been ready to do this a few months ago. I think I am now. I get so tired of the stigma attached to WLS by people who don't even know the facts. So I'm going to give these people some facts. I'm nervous but for some reason I am feeling that it is important to do this. I haven't quite put my finger on exactly why, but I will.
Weight loss had slowed very dramatically, which is to be expected. It didn't matter what I tried, it just was going at its own pace. I was expecting a major stall or a gain this week, as that's what's been happening the week Auntie Flo comes to visit. Not this time. The scale keeps moving, bit by bit. I keep wondering if I'm doing something right (not exercising? more good carbs?-ha!) but I am having a sneaking suspicion that the doctor upping my Adderall to something close to a normal adult level may have something to do with it. Don't quote me on that, it's a shot in the dark. I know it will stop again and that it needs to but for now, IT FEELS SO GOOD to see the numbers go down.
I'm still having trouble with dizzy spells when I get up from sitting or laying down. Truthfully though, it's not nearly as bad as it was. It was happening several times a day and I would have to grab something to make sure I didn't fall. Now it may happen a couple of times and it's usually not nearly as bad. But I'm still trying to figure it out. I'm still on Metformin and my Thomas and I were thinking maybe I just don't need it anymore. So, starting yesterday, I have been pricking my fingers several times a day in hopes that maybe I'll see a pattern or something. I figured I can do this for a week or so and when I see my doctor, I can show him and let him tell me I'm just fine. He thinks it has something to do with my middle ear and gave me something to take for the dizziness. I don't even have it all the time. But when I really do, it's fast, like SWOOSH! It's like a black cloud goes over my vision, it feels like I'm on a too-fast merry-go-round and I have pressure in my head and hands. Who knows.
It was such a gorgeous day yesterday and I took a walk to the park. After weeks of being cooped up inside because of the cold, I forget how much I love being outside and just walking. I don't feel like people are staring at me anymore. People talk to me and smile. I met a neighbor from down the street walking her baby and dog. I hope we meet again.
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About Me
swansea, IL
Location
45.8
BMI
Surgery
05/28/2008
Surgery Date
Sep 23, 2007
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