1 Week Pre-Op

Jul 29, 2011

So, I'm having my surgery in one week... which is both exciting and nerve-wracking.  I'm excited about future change, but I'm more nervous for two reasons.  1) My husband (who is also having the surgery same day) and I have decided not to tell anyone and I'm deathly scared I will die on the operating table and my friends and family will find out and be so disappointed ; and 2) I'm nervous I won't use my tool well enough and just be like the many who lose lots of weight but don't keep it off. 

I know my first fear is just really out there, but it causes me anxiety.  I suppose I can't be too anxious because my blood pressure was only 100/68 yesterday, which I've been told is the blood pressure of a teenager. Go figure!  

Since my BMI is 41-42, I have to start a pre-op diet today.  My husband AJ (bless his soul, he's been on his pre-op diet for 2 weeks already!) poured me a glass of Muscle Milk this morning and ugh, it was nasty!  I kept trying to tell myself that it's "not that bad"--you know, power of suggestion?  Well, no, that didn't help.  Must try other drinks.  AJ has already tried a bunch of them and assured me MM was the best.  Um, no.  And I know you're all wondering why I didn't try the others with him.  Well, I was out of town and I just took his word for it.  Hmm.. I  might have to rethink that strategy.   Actually, we do have another drink which I did try the other day.  It's Metabolic Reset , and although it tastes very strongly of (fake) strawberry syrup, is not that bad; at least, it doesn't have that chalky taste of added protein.

Although I have been enjoying my last few meals this week (and perhaps eating a little too much chocolate), I have been trying to eat smaller portions and stop before I'm full.  I realize it will take a while before I'm eating appropriate amounts.  My worst fault is feeling the need to finish the food on my plate, or--worse--the food I paid for (i.e. getting the most for my money).  This is why buffets are so bad.  I haven't been to buffet in years and don't plan on going to one again (except I've always wanted to do a breakfast buffet in Las Vegas... you know, the ones that cost $ 2.99 and have all-you-can-eat eggs, bacon, waffles, pancakes... yummmm!... I really shouldn't be doing this to myself today, what with starting my liquid diet; and besides, I digress...).  But at Olive Garden and Red Lobster (my favorites!), I cannot resist those yummy breadsticks and those absolutely divine cheddar biscuits!   Mmmm, my mouth is watering just thinking about them! Stop that!  Okay, so the point I was taking the scenic route to make is that, besides said chocolate, I didn't feel the need to gorge on anything.  As a matter of fact, I lost 3 pounds this month, so that's something.

Well, wish me luck as I embark on this lovely diet.  Any suggestions for yummy (or at least decent-tasting) protein drinks would be greatly appreciated.

Audra

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