Tricia Stewart

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I know it has been a long, long, long time since I have updated.  Things got a little crazy in my life for awhile.
Things have been going great since I have had my Gastric Bypass.
I am still losing weight and have lost a total of 220 lbs. now.
I finally found someone who can love me for me.  We have been dating now for four months.  I could not be more happier with my life!  I am feeling great and have a wonderful man who supports and loves me no matter what.
I continue to struggle with the body image issues.
I have so much excess skin I can't stand to look at myself.  I have to keep reminding myself that these are good wrinkles and lines.  I did something to change my life.  It isn't like I didn't know it wouldn't happen. *shrug* 
I am just starting the process of trying to figure out what I can do with Plastic Surgery.  I had an appointment today with a local surgeon but he doesn't deal with Post Bariatric Surgery.  I am trying to do some searches on the internet to see what I can find out.

I feel very lost and alone lately.  I don't think things have been going very well for a long time.  I need to get back on track but not sure how.  I haven't been going to the monthly support group because I can't seem to bring myself to go see the success when I am a failure.

I have been feeling pretty poor lately.  For almost a week actually.  I am not sure what is going on or what I should do about it.  I have very bad pain in my lower tummy.  Nothing I eat or drink agrees with me lately.  I haven't been eating or drinking anything bad.  I don't know if I should go to the ER for "nothing" or if this is something I should get checked out.

Today is my 1 year anniversary.  Hard to believe it has been that long.  I am now down 176 lbs.  Could I have done better?  I think so.  Am I happy with the progress I have made?  Yes and no.  Would I do it again?  In a heartbeat!  It gave me my life back.

I had another small stepping stone happen tonight.  My ring size is now an 8!  I can't tell you how excited that makes me!  Normally I was always a size 10.  I have NO idea what it was pre-surgery date.  I just know I have been a size 9 for a long time and was dying to get down to an 8.

I really, really, really need the Support Group this week.  Things have been so stressed around here.  I keep having break downs.  Things just are not right.

Today is my 39th Birthday. *ack!*
For the first time in many, many years I actually feel like going out and doing something!
Unfortunately, I don't have any plans to do so.
But it feels good to actually want to do it! hehe

I meant to post this earlier today but we had a car accident in the family this afternoon.

I went to see my Nutritionist today and it went well.  I have lost another 11 lbs so that makes my grand total 167 lbs. =)  I am very excited about that.  I am glad my meeting went well.  I had a couple of fears that concerned stretching my pouch out.  I find myself more hungry now than I was right after surgery.  But Anne said I was doing great.  I am so happy to hear that.  Just gotta keep on trucking with the weight loss!

Keira Anne-Lois Smith was born on June 12, 2009 @ 12:43 a.m.  She is the most beautiful baby!  She is sick now today.  She has some sort of infection and needs to stay in the ICU for at least 7 days.  She looks just like her Mommy.  She is so adorable.  I am so very excited! :)

I was finally able to get my hair cut tonight.  It is so much shorter!  I have been told I look like a different person.  I will post my picture to my album.  It isn't the best because I have no make up on nor did anything with the new cut.  I will get a picture taken tomorrow before my Post Op Support Group. =) 

I also tried on a swimsuit today that didn't fit me before.. almost fits!!  I just have to lose a little bit more so it will fit over my shoulders.  Before I couldn't even get it over my tummy. *lol*

I went to the gym today and worked out for a half hour.  I just did the treadmill for the full 30 minutes.  I am so proud of that!  I haven't been able to walk for that long in a long time!  Whoot!