Apr 09, 2008
Hey OH family,
I have been gone for a while, but that was because there was really nothing to post. For a while my weight was standing still, but I was losing inches. Losing inches is great because you fit into your clothes better, but it still made me feel like I was not doing well. I still need to learn to make good food choices most of the time instead of some of the time. I do get full quickly, so I just have to stop when I should and not over eat. I should have learned by now, overeating is not good for me nor is it comfortable for me. I have had a coupld of stuck incidents now (with chicken), and boy were they painful. I'm still learning the ins and outs of the band, and hopefully will make true headwaves. However, I am down another 8 lbs, which I am so happy about. I had even put the scale away because I was tired of it reading the same number over and over again. I decided to take it out on Monday and when I read it this time, I was so excited. So for all of you who may read this, even if the pounds are not coming off like you want them too, just keep plugging away, it will.
I NEED A FILL NOW!!
Feb 07, 2008
Oh my goodness people. It has been over a month since I had a fill and I really need one. Right now, I still get full pretty quickly, but the full feeling does not last very long any more. When I was tight, I had no problem not snacking between meals. But now, I am STARVING a couple hours after I eat. I have another week before I get my next fill and I'm scared I will try to eat everything that is not nailed to the floor between now and then. I'm trying to stay strong because I want to see some weight loss on that scale next week but this shit is HARD. I'm back in bandster hell!!!
What am I doing?
Jan 22, 2008
Ok, where do I start. What am I doing, that is the question. I have fallen off the wagon, and I'm being dragged by one leg and the wagon is now about to go off the cliff. I made it through the holidays without snacking too bad, I even lost 7lbs between Thanksgiving and Christmas. However, right after Christmas, it all went down hill. I have been eating bad foods, grazing, snacking, drinking calorie liquids, and also drinking with my meals (not all the time, but too much). What is wrong with me? I know what I should be doing, so why am I not doing it. I can't say that it is because it is hard not to do these things, because it really isn't. Usually, I just don't do them. I took a long look at myself and told myself that I do not want to gain this 40lbs back that I have lost so far, and I want to contiue with my summertime goal. In order to achieve my summertime goal, I have to get back on the wagon. Today is the first day in the drivers seat and I have done well. I just have to keep this up and I will be all good again. I don't have another weigh in until 2/14, so I need to shed a few lbs by then so as to not alert my doctor of what I have been doing.
Fat and a Hot Mess
Jan 17, 2008
Its been awhile, but I have not had any news. I only weigh myself when I go in for fills. But I was cleaning my closet the other day and I found a picture of myself on vacation in
(I added it to my profile pictures). Seeing the picture really depressed me. It represents everything I hated about myself. Being fat, depressed and having low self-esteem. I remember thinking that I looked really cute while down there and I had a wonderful time too. But I look at that and think, how could I have liked myself, how could I have thought I looked cute, how could I have had such a warped sense of self. I WAS FAT (I still am) and miserable and hated being fat. Seeing that picture really made me thank God that I was awarded this opportunity to change myself and how I feel about myself. I have to work really hard to lose weight and also build confidence and feel like I have self-worth again. See I was not always fat and had great confidence in myself and liked who I was. I really hope that I can shed the pounds and also give my self-esteem a lift too. I really need it!!
HAPPY NEW YEAR!
Dec 31, 2007
Wishing all my OH family and friends a wonderful and blessed New Year! May all your weight loss dreams come true.
Scared for Nothing
Dec 20, 2007
Hey Oh Fam,
I had my 2nd fill yesterday. This one was not as fun. The first time he stuck me, he missed the port and tried searching for it while the needle was stuck in my gut. That was a little uncomfortable. So he took it out and regrouped and tried again, this time he got it right away and it was not very painful this time around. But like I said in my post yesterday, I was more nervous about the weigh in because I was not sure how I was doing in the weight loss department. I don't see a difference at all! Well since my last fill 1 month ago, I lost another 7 lbs. I was so happy. 7 lbs in one month is great. So that just gives me more incentive to keep doing what I am doing. WORKING MY BAND!!
2nd Fill Today - a little nervous
Dec 19, 2007
Hey OH family,
I'm really nervous about my fill today. Well not so much about the fill, more about the weigh in. I don't think I have lost any weight since the last time I went 1 month ago. I have not been exercising right, drinking enough water or eating properly at all times. I have not been snacking all day, but I might have a cookie here or there. I don't have any band restriction yet, so I'm still eating up to a cup and a half of food at some meals (not all). I totally sat out of the office pot luck yesterday so I would not be tempted to eat anything I shouldn't. I just ate the little lunch I brought from home. Actually, I don't really feel I missed out on anything, so I was fine with my decision to sit it out. Anyway, keep your fingers crossed that I lost a little something, or at least I didn't gain. I hope with this fill I will have some restriction! And here I go with the 2 day liquid diet phase again (my favorite.......NOT).
It's been awhile
Dec 17, 2007
It’s been a couple weeks since I have posted here. I just have not had any updates, which kinda sucks. I bought a scale a couple months ago, but I don't think its working correctly. When I would weigh myself, my weight was all over the place so one day I would be sky high and the next all depressed. So I decided to see how accurate it really was and put a 5lb bag of flour on it, well it didn't even register. Then I made my cat get on it and it was hard keeping him on it, but it didn't even register for him either. So something is not right! So I'm not sure where I am in my weight loss. People have been noticing but I am only down one pant size, so I am getting very frustrated. Also, I have not been making good food choices either. I'm good for breakfast and lunch, but sometimes dinner and after is another story. My portions are still smaller than they used to be, but I'm probably eating at least a cup to a cup and a half of food at dinner time (like I said, breakfast and lunch are ok). My workouts have not been consistent either, so I have to get on the ball there. Water......nope, need to do better too. I am going in for another fill on Thursday, so I am a little excited but nervous about it. Maybe this will help me eat less and start to shed the pounds.
Nov 29, 2007
Its FRIDAY! I'm so happy, I love the weekends. Well I worked out 3x this week but not today, I was too tired to get up. So I gotta make up for it this weekend. But...those two pounds I gained for Thanksgiving are gone already. I can't believe it. Never in my life have I been able to drop 2lbs that fast EVER! I have my next fill on 12/20 and my goal is to have lost at least 8-10 more pounds by then. I still can't believe I'm on my way to a healthier and smaller me. Just thinking about it makes me smile. Boy what I would not do to look like I did when I played basketball in college. Everything was tight! Anyway, dreaming again. If I can just make it to my goal, I will be sooooo happy. Well, that's it for now, chatatcha later.
Nov 26, 2007
Hi OH Family,
Guess what, I worked out today for the first time since my surgery. I know I should have been doing something long ago; I just could not get motivated. About a year ago, I decided I wanted to get in shape and started working out 4x per week doing weight training, aerobics, and core strengthening. I had gotten myself in cardio shape and could move with the best of them, even while being over weight. Then life happened about 5 months ago and I was not able to work out as much and then stopped all together. Then once things cleared, it was time for surgery. Now I'm hoping to get things back on track and along with the band, hope I will see a bit more of weight loss than just working out alone. I am excited! I'm so glad I got up this morning; maybe it's my body telling me it's ready. Plus I got a lot of weight to lose by next summer. I want to be smokin hot in June.
P.S. It is only 4 degrees outside with a wind-chill of -14. Yes, that is negative 14 degrees! I live in Minnesnowta people.