barriegirl26
Well I'm going to start at the beginning. between the ages off 0-9 everyone thought i was a starving child. i was really skinny I'm also very fair skinned and always had darkness under my eyes until i hit 9 lol. from there on it has been a battle. i was bullied all through elementary school if it wasn't my hair it was my large feet or my chest or my height. i became the punching bag of every school kid in my class.
all of a sudden i hit a growth spurt in my waste. i started gaining. at ten i was all ready into women size clothing. out of frustration my mother through me into tights and big sweaters. after a few years i weighed about 230 at 14, so off to the doctor i went. After an ultrasound i was diagnosed with PCOS Polycystic ovary syndrome (PCOS). at this age i wasn't really told much about this syndrome other the i will have fertility issues.
I met my boyfriend when i was 21 years old my weight was 320 pounds at the time and i was more then happy at the time because i didn't have any issues.....i could still walk everywhere, i could fit into a car and put my belt on easily with no discomfort, i could still do everything i wanted to do without pain and suffering. i ended up quitting my job moving 3 hrs away from all family, i became depressed and alone. we were so broke living off of food bank and giant tiger food. next thing you know my pants wouldn't fit anymore and i was having issues breathing. i couldn't walk anywhere without huffing and puffing and sometimes fainting.
another diagnosis asthma....
i weighed myself 450 pounds. i cried right there in the doctors office i couldn't believe my eyes that i had gained 130 pounds in 1 year of being with my boyfriend. i got depressed, stressed finally my mom got me out. we moved in with her. things hadn't changed but i did.
it took me 4 years to realize what had happened to me and to figure out that we were not good for each other. the person your with should bring you up not bring you down, encourage you and help you get motivated. i went from someone who worked 70 hours a week to laying on a couch...... any movement would hurt. how could i have let this go so far......just thinking about it brings me to tears.
for the longest time i couldn't go out. grocery shopping was embarrassing. even taking the bus. i take a seat and a half and feel like everyone is looking at me.
looking for work is almost pointless. i have an amazing resume but still don't get hired. they take one look at the girl who cant fit in a chair with arms and pretty much right no across the resume.
i am at my end i don't know what else to do. i find it really hard to exercise with my knee pain and back pain. to do dishes hurts my back. everything is becoming harder to do. I'm 27 and feel like I'm more like 67.
i have decided on gastric bypass.....My mother had it done 25 years ago and it worked for her. i believe this is an option that can help me. now is the only way i have to think. i just found out more about my pcos and found out it can cause cervical cancer, diabetes and infertility. i know that me being morbidly obese can cause these but now i have it against me times 2. do i really want to wait for the day i get a diagnosis on one of these????
so that brings me to now, gastric bypass.
