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Official weigh in this morning 291 (pre breakfast and street cloths!)
I can't believe how far I have come. Only 37 pounds and I will be back to where I was before I gained back. 

I can't believe I've signed on 2 days in a row.  The scales are still going down, this morning they said 292.8.  That's -35 & 1/2 since the beginning of this year, my total lose is now 179 & 1/2.  It has been a real struggle for me but the main thing is, I haven't given up.  In the past I wouldn't have lasted past the first set back.  It's important for me to continue no matter what road blocks or set backs I come to.  If I hit a stand still or flucuate around a number - then I need to figure out if it is a normal plateau or am I doing something wrong.  After I dropped my calories to 900 I still hung between 298 - 300 for another week. I realized that I was getting a frozen coke just about every other day, when I stopped that and the scales have continued to drop. The main problem I have right now is that I just don't exercise.  I could have had double the weight off if I just started some sort of exercise program.  This is what I really need to work on.

I've been gone a while again.  The good news is I am still on program.  My morning weight today is 293.  I have lost 35 pounds since the beginning of the year. I've had my share of slips but the main victory is I haven't given up.
I am tracking my calories through fitday.com.  At first I was doing 1000-1200 calories but eventually that stopped working for me.  I decided that since I wasn't exercising that this was too many calories.  I have cut my calorie intake to 900 a day.  This seems to be working for me.
My first goal is to get back down to my weight before I started gaining.  I am planning on being down to 254 by the end of October.

Can't be possible I have been off the boards this long.  I was so surprised to see all the changes on the board. It will take me a long time rebuiding my profile to this new format.
So what's new - we started a biggest loser contest at work. Good thing because I have ballooned up to 328 pounds.  I know you aren't supose to get on the scales every day - but I should have gotten on them at least once a month. So the truth is I have re-gained 74 pounds from my lowest weight.

I have been staying off the scales because I've been bummed by my second weeks weigh in. I haven't been on the treadmill for 3 days.  Being out with Janaye trick or treating for 2 hours did contribute to exercising.

10/13/2005
Life has just been passing.  A little stressed the last few months.  Still as big as before, I am still waiting to find my incentive to get this weight loss moving again.  I find if I eat something that bothers me, I simply go an purge it. I know that is not good but it is hard to stop. I wate too much time thinking abouth the "what ifs'.  Lots of changes since April - our daughter and grand daughter have moved in, we moved to another park, I didn't get laid off in June as I was hoping.
10/14/2005
I started using fitday.com can count my carbs. It's hard to decide which way to go - low carbs or low calories.
10/27/2005
I am reluctant to get on the scales now.  I always have a good first week and then all hell breaks loose.  I don't feel any lighter but you never know.  It's really hard to keep the momentum going isn't it.  I want to continue so I have to just take one day at a time.  I don't want to stay at where I am today.  I am proud of the fact that I have kept up with the treadmill.  I almost quit last night at 4 minutes in but I stayed with it and was happy that I did.  Paul is continuing to declair his amazing weight loos w/o trying.  ANYONE WHO CAN LOSE WEIGHT WITHOUT TRYING - GET OUT OF MY FACE.  What kind of brag is that to someone who struggles with their weight? How insinsitive can a person be.
10/29/2005
Wow...scales weren't kind yesterday.  After all that I have been doing and only a pound and a half?

When I saw Dr Huse about my why I was having problems with eating, it was determined that my stomach was empting normally.  I asked him about doing a revision by bypassing more intestine (I'm only 120cm) but he believes doing another 30 cm would cause more malapsorbtion problems I wouldn't want.  He said the area I am carrying the extra weight (butt & legs) does not cause health issues - so I'm going to have to get it off the old fashion way

I'm back up to 289 pounds, that's a total of 35 pounds from my weight in August from my lowest weight of 254.  I got a pep talk from the NP, so after Christmas I am going to get down to business.  When I was in my prime losing time, I could not understand how anyone could let themselves out eat  the RNY.  Now I understand.  We are human and it is very easy to slip back into old comfortable habits.

Life has been stressful.  I have been working between 55 - 65 hours for several months now.  I quit my second job today.  I couldn't take it anymore. It started out that the second job would be my spending money - as it turned out it all went into the budget.  Saturday was my 3rd year WLS anniversary.  I am sad to say that I am still struggling with the weight gain. I never thought I would quit before I made it to my goal.  I made my goal weight 170 pounds  but I am going to have to work my butt off to get there.  I should never have tested the sugar tolerance last year.  I have not been on the scales in so long but I can feel the weight pilling on.

I thought a lot about what my problem with food is.  It started 10 months post-op.  I eat only about 2-4 oz of meat and I feel like I have eaten 10.  I can't stand the pain to I go and vomit.  That can't be good.  I am not losing because I am consuming tons of carbs. It seems that when I vomit my evening meal, I replace it with carbs. I do that because eating carbs doesn't upset my tummy.  I guess I come to depend on them.  That has to stop and I am the only one that can do that.  I don't want to undo all that I have accomplished.