Three Days To Go

Oct 19, 2008

Three days and counting. I am full of emotions. I am scared, excited, doubtful, happy, curious etc. I just pray I am doing the right thing. I hope I can overcome a lifetime of bad eating habits and get back to a healthy weight my body so deserves. My husband Richard still hasn't found a job and money is getting tight but I told him to put off the searching until after my surgery on Wednesday. I need him home for support. One fear I have this  morning is that I am getting a cold. I have been sneezing, coughing and blowing my nose like crazy. I do suffer from bad allergies and am praying that's all it is. It would be awful to come all this way and be stopped by a lousy cold. I will pray for the best. It's all I can do at this point.

WOOHOOOO ! !

Oct 16, 2008

Good news all around. First, the angiogram went well but was very painful and I still have a rather large bruise on my arm from it.  Then I went to the cardiologist today and he says all is now clear for my lap band surgery on October 22nd. I am so very happy. So, I am counting down the days again. wooohoooooo


BAD NEWS !!!

Oct 07, 2008

Just got my test results back. There will be no surgery for me tomorrow.  Dr wouldn't give me clearance for surgery. I have to go in for an angiogram on Monday because during my stress test this morning they found a lesion. Needless to say I am VERY disappointed.   But I called my lap band surgeon and they changed my surgery date to October 22nd so I will shoot for that date now.  The tears of disappointment and depression have come and gone. It is better to be safe than sorry and besides, surgery is not off, just delayed. I need to keep positive now. But still sad.


Two days to go.......

Oct 06, 2008

  I am having a bad day again today. My husband lost his job this morning so now I have that to worry about. I am worried about my 2 heart tests today and tomorrow. I am really stressed about the surgery even though in the back of my mind I know I will be ok. Good news at least...my sinuses are doing better today (knock on wood). I am just doing bad. Hope tomorrow is better !!!

Three days to go .....

Oct 05, 2008

3 more days to go until surgery and I am really getting worried. My sinuses have really been bothering me. I have been waking up with bad headaches. My allergies are acting up big time as is my asthma. I am scared I won't be able to breathe in the operating room with all this stuff going on with me. They act up in the morning mostly and I am scheduled for the first surgery of the morning. I can just pray all will go well. I want this to happen but that doesn't stop me from being scared.


Hurdles

Oct 01, 2008

Here I am getting all psyched up for surgery in 1 week. Then I go to the cardiologist for the cardiac release that is needed and he tells me they want to do a stress test and an echo first to see if I can withstand the surgery. I tell him my surgery is in a week so here they are, all rushing around trying to get the appointments set up, the hospital equipment needed etc. I found out I have an echo on Monday and the stress test on Tuesday. Now, since I can't walk well, this is going to be a chemical stress test which I have had done before. My problem is this....I just hope they get all the test results back and they are ok so I can go ahead with the surgery on Wednesday. But, I do understand that if they are not, I wouldn't want to go throught the surgery. It's just been a very long journey up to this point and I would hate for something to go wrong when I am so close. I will keep you posted.


A Better Day

Sep 26, 2008

It's amazing what a good nights rest will do for the mind and soul. I am doing much better today. Thank you all for your words of encouragement which I am sure helped a lot. My legs are even doing better pain wise, at least right now. Perhaps by this evening they will hurt but for now I will savor the moment of no pain.

Feeling Blue

Sep 25, 2008

Not having a good day today. My depression has kicked in. Haven't had an episode in some time with the new meds I am on but today is not good. Now I am geting scared about my upcoming surgery on October 8th. Not sure why. I have had surgeries before but for some reason doubt has set in. I have been crying this morning. I want this surgery to help change my life since all diets have failed. I am having pain in both knees from work injuries and really having a hard time walking lately. The more weight I gain, the more pain I have. One reason for the surgery is to lose weight so I can take weight off my bad knees. I have been told I need 2 total knee replacements but don't want that done until I can lose 100 lbs and can do the rehab after that surgery.  But I have to live with the pain on a daily basis and it is depressing. I just feel so useless sometimes. There is so much I want and need to do but the pain gets in the way. Oh well, maybe tomorrow will be a better day.

Surgery

Sep 19, 2008

I have just found out my surgery date for my lap band will be October 8th. I can't wait. I have been thinking that maybe I should go for the bypass surgery but I really don't want major surgery. I just hope with the lap band I can lose the weight I want to. I want to be healthy for the first time in many years.

Waiting

Jun 18, 2008

Well, the cruise is over now and I am ready to go. I just need to get in touch with my doctor to see what else is needed for the surgery. I really want to do this. I do have a few people, my husband included, who don't like the idea of surgery but he has promised to stand by me and support me all the way. I am having a hard time lately and wonder if I can do it. I mean, I love to eat. That is why I am in this predicament. But my problem is and always has been that I am always hungry. I have tried diets, all kinds of them. But, I always gain the weight back and then some, when I go off of them.  And, like always, I was still always hungry. I weighed myself this morning and got very depressed and shocked. I am over 300 lbs now and I swore I would NEVER get to that point. So, today I call the doctor and get this ball rolling. It's all in mine and God's hands now.

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Payson, AZ
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10/22/2008
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