Becky B.

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Well it has been a long time since I was here.  Its been over 3 years since I had the DS and to date Ive lost a total of 309lbs.  Ive lost 30lbs since Feb this year.  My weight has been pretty stable.  Im sitting at 225lbs. I was considering having the DS again but my boyfriend is highly against it. He doesnt understand that Im still not happy with myself.  I had a tummy tuck in August of 2010, they removed 12lbs of skin ... I feel better but they made my belly button look like a half butt *sigh* its okay I am planning on more cosmetic surgery this next year.  I met a really great guy on the internet. We will be together 2 years Nov 21st.  Im happy with him and hes working on getting his visa so he can stay here fulltime, he is from Aussie (Im in California) so hes only able to live here 6 months out of the year without the visa and its been fine that way but we are both ready for him to be here fulltime.  Its late right now so Im going to go to bed but will log on tomorrow and upload photos and update a bit more.  I have been missing the great people that helped me for so long on this site

Well I had my 5 month check up with Dr.K and I have lost over 100lbs ... WOOT WOOT! GO ME GO ME!!  I am so excited.  My mom said she could see my bones (collar bones and shoulders) I was so excited and now I am obsessed with feeling them! seriously I am constantly rubbing my shoulders haha.  I haven't had any problems from surgery at all ... I do have a hernia which I expected and Dr.K says we will fix it when I have my tummy tuck. 

My older sister is PREGNANT! yep she is a practicing catholic and lets just say her METHOD of counting days or whatever DIDNT WORK! I am very excited about it and in fact have been thinking seriously about having a child of my own.  I am going to be 33 and I always wanted to do it the right way but in all reality I really do not think I am going to meet anyone in the next two years and Im not getting any younger so I am looking in to sperm bank.  YES! I have already started looking in to sperm banks here in California and it looks pretty interesting.  Well this is it for now.  I just felt it was time to ramble a bit.

Oh yeah! My mother is great ... she is getting a shadow on her head so we are all excited about the hair hehe.  She recovered pretty well from her mastectomy and should start radiation in the next week or so.  I am thankful she is doing so well.

4 months out and my labs are all normal ... except for my thyroid.  We are working on adjusting my medications and this is to be expected with weightloss or gain. 

I have changed a lot ... my outter appearance.  I never have had short hair and now I do, it is wonderful and I love it. 

I went out to eat lunch yesterday and I really honestly have not eaten out in a restaruant for  6yrs or so because I never could fit in the booths and it just made me really stressed out to have to think I had to go some where and not know if I could fit or not ... well yesterday we went out and as soon as we got in the the place I saw booths and paniced ... yep I did.  My friend Kerri was like its okay ... guess the look of terror landed across my face haha anyways I quickly calmed myself and said why not try it and low and behold I fit with room to spare! I cannot even remember the last time I fit in a damn booth!  I also wear my seatbelt daily now ... every vehicle I have gotten in to the belts fit (well except for my friends back seat!) so that is a plus as well.  I pretty much can eat whatever I want without problems but I notice lately that I have been having WAY too much fast food ... that was my down fall ... not over eating but eating out, so I am freaking out a bit about that.  I am dowm 93lbs since March 19th 2008 ... I have not really lost any weight in 3 weeks and that worries me ... I just need to quit with the burgers ... I dont even eat the damn fries!!! its the BURGERSSSSSSSSSSSSSS lol.  So I am good health wise and feel great.

My mom has breast cancer and has just finished chemo ... boy did she get really sick with one of the chemo treatments .. it looked as if someone took scalding hot water and poured it down her arms ... they were red and raw ... it was horrible.  She ended up in the hospital for 4 nights with low blood cell counts ... like 1. somethings ... very very bad!!!  Her arms and hands are pretty much healed up ... her finger nails are black and nasty looking and she has no hair.  My poor momma ... I look at her and think how beautiful she was and I see how the cancer and chemo has taken its toll on her ... its very sad.  She is still bald as can be but her spirits are good.  She goes in July 30th for a double mastectomy (I probably spelt that wrong) and the original plan was to do reconstructive surgery at the same time, now however, she is going to be doing radiation so the doctos want her to wait a year for reconstructive surgery and it is freaking mom out.  She says my stepdad is going to trade her in ... they have been married damn near 25yrs ... there is noway he would do that and I think she is talking crazy but Im not in her shoes and I cant say I wouldnt feel the same way.  I am however excited that this is almost over for her.  I do not fear her surgery but I fear the mental state it may put her in afterwards.  That is a huge thing to have your breast removed.  My mother has always been very big breasted (as in an i cup) so its huge.

Hell I have rambled enough for one day.  I was on here and seen I hadnt updated for awhile so figured Id ramble a bit.  You can keep checking back I am going to try to keep my shit updated.

4/29/2008


Well I am down 54lbs today and couldnt feel better.  I have completely turned myself around and am doing things I havent done in over 5yrs.  I thank god and the doctors everyday for this surgery.  I would do it over again in a heartbeat.  Im doing great and just wanted to let anyone know who is reading this that it is so worth it!

4/3/2008

Well Im just 2 weeks out from surgery and couldnt feel better.  I have lost 19lbs thus far  and have no bad side effects so far! (knock on wood).  I feel very blessed to have been able to have this surgery, after waiting for about 5 years.  I really thought it would be harder then it is but I am glad its not.  I started driving again yesterday and boy oh boy was that fun!  I love to get out of the house and I missed my truck dearly.  I can pretty much eat whatever I want.  I tend to stay away from carbs and sugar.  Well this is it for now but I will update with progress reports and such as time goes by,

March 2nd 2008


Well its official, my mother has been diagnosed with evasive breast cancer .  Im very sad and Im having a hard time staying positive ... I lost my father when I was 15 to brain cancer ... so the whole CANCER word freaks me out!!  My mom is a nervous wreck ... I feel so sorry for her.  She doesnt want us to cry around her or anything like that but every time I look at her I just break down crying .... not sure how I can stop this.  She will meet her surgeon on Monday March 10th.  Im pretty sure she will be having surgery that week or the following week.  Im headed down to Delano with just myself and my friend Kerri.  I want my mom there with me so much (its a security thing) but Im not willing to put off my surgery ... she has asked that I do but its been so long and everything is paid for and taken care of ... all reservations and what not.  I feel bad and feel like I am being selfish but I need to do this for me.  I am afraid because none of my family will be with me but I think things will be alright.  Im also sorry I wont be able to be here for her surgery either.  I hate stress ... stress SUCKS .... I want to eat a chocolate muffin right now from Costco but of course I have had the flu the last two days sooooo that wont be happening any time soon haha.  Okay well I was just venting ... probably doesnt make a bit of sense to anyone that is reading this but it does feel a bit better for me (again selfishness)  I will post again when I find out more about mom.  I pray she makes it thru this.

I just got back from my appointment with Dr.K ... boy oh boy what a night I had ... had to drive thru wind, rain and snow just to get to him! but I did it ... he was late flying in due to weather but he made it and I had my appointment. Hes a great man ... very nice ... I joke around a lot and he laughed a lot. I was not given my surgery date but Dee said she would call me by Wed and give it to me ...(she also said if I didnt hear from her by Wed for me to call her haha) I met a lot of nice people that are planning on having the DS and I met a lot of nice people that have had the DS and look great. I am sooooooo excited ... I know I will not be having it done lap but that is okay ... he said my incision would be about 3 - 4 inches which is cool with me Anyways ... had my consult and shrink appt as well ... guess what?! Im not crazy haha however I did put my jacket on backwards and have the shrink tie my arms behind my back as I walked back out to the waiting area where about 12 other DSers were waiting to have checkups lol boy they laughed a lot today! I told them he said I was crazy hehehe Okay well I just wanted to update everyone as to whats happening .. I am glad to be home we stayed at the Fairfield Inn by Mariott and it SUCKED! yep! sucked. Hope everyone is well and keeping warm. I will post again after Wed.

1/23/2008

I recieved a packet from Central Valley Bariatrics from Dee.  I have an appointment in Ukiah to meet my surgeon Dr. K.  I am so excited ... Im not even nervous to get this done anymore.  I am more then ready to move on to the next phase of my life and put this one behind me.  I was told I will get my surgery date at this appointment.  I will post more after I return home.   I cant believe I have gone from 509lbs to 420lbs thats a total of about 90lbs lost ... can you believe that? cause I cant haha.  I cant wait!!!

11/29/2007

Well I just got off the phone with Michelle from Central Valley Bariatrics and I am SOOOO happy ... seriously I could just cry.  She is setting up an appointment for after the 1st of the year for me because right now I am on straight Medi-Cal and after the 1st my Medicare kicks in.  I want to say thank you to Tony he has been a big inspiration to me and it is because of him that I was able to find a place to accept my insurance and to give me the DS that I have been so patiently waiting on.   I have nothing but mad love for he and his family.  He is a wonderful person.  Sooo I will be posting again after the first of the year with more good news and hopefully a surgery date.  Thanks again to everyone at OH ... great support, great friends and great information about bariatric surgery.

11/19/2007

Here I sit at the computer ... still in the same position basically as I have been over the past few years.  Still no weight loss surgery ... no surgeon ... nothing.  I will not give up ... Im trying my hardest to have surgery through Central Valley Bariatrics but who knows what will happen in the end.  Im almost tired of fighting to get this done but I know if I do that I really don't have anything in my life to look forward to.  I have gone through a depression like most of us ... I take prozac daily and have so for 4 years (at least it feels like that long) Im just babbling on here.  I feel pretty good ... I have lost 80lbs since Feb of this year and that is wonderful but I still weigh 425lbs.  I can't go to concerts with my friends, out to eat, amusement parks, cant wear a seat belt in my truck, I guess instead of thinking about all the things I CANT do I should be thinking about the things I CAN do now.  I will keep fighting and Im sure I will get my surgery one day, when the good lord feels it is my time for surgery it will happen.  Until then I will be here ... at my computer.  Its almost Thanksgiving and I should be thinking of everything I am thankful for ... maybe I am PMSing.  Who knows.  I just wanted to rant somewhere and this was about as good a place as any.  I will try to post more and be more positive but it gets hard after so many years of trying.