bigmomma31
I have always loved food! As a child and all thru my teens i played Soccer, Basketball and Softball. Everyday, i was active. When I was 18, I went from playing sports everyday to being pregnant. My body was shocked! I didn't work out, didn't walk, I didn't do much of anything. I stayed home and ate, and ate, and ate! My ex caused me stressed, I got fired from my job at 6months because "Pregnant woman are uncapable of WORKING!" Needless to say, i Ate. I put on nearly 100pounds. After I had my beautiful and healthy baby girl I was blind to the weight i had put on. I was a closet eater, LITERALLY! I ate good and healthy infront of my friends and family, but behind closed doors or in my car was another story.
In my mid 20's I tried weight loss programs then my Dr put me on weight loss pills. That was great, for the time. I lost 97lbs, i was shopping every 2 weeks because my clothes were getting bigger and bigger. I may have helped those lil pills by barely eating. So, once i stopped taking them and my appetite came back and i revereted back to my old ways. I put all and then some of my weight back on 
I tried Weight Watchers, I tried the Atkins diet, I even won LA Weightloss FREE for 1year! Every program i would lose some weight, not much. I'd be proud of myself and then "reward" myself and by doing so I sabotaged myself Ever SIngle TIme????
I gave up 
The day before my 30th Birthday, I found out I was pregnant! Who woulda thought I'd get pregnant while being Morbidly Obese? I sure the heck didn't. I was shocked and so scared i'd gain weight like I did with my daughter. I ate sooooo good and definetly helped that I didn't crave junk, I wanted meat and veggies! I was also sick the first 21 weeks, so at the end of my pregnancy i had only gained 28lbs 
and had a very healthy and of course beautiful baby boy! I continued to be very careful on what I fed myself as I nursed my boy until 5 months. Now, the last 3 months i`ve once again gone back to my old ways. I don`t want spend my 30`s the same way as my 20`s. I want to get a hold of my weight so I can play around with my kids. I want to live and be as healthy as I can for my 40`s. I want to run!!
Last week I made an appointment with my Family Dr (different from my old pill prescribing Dr). I have now admitted to myself and my Dr that I am addicted to food. I need help! Thinking my Dr would only suggest counseling, he suggested I consider a Weight loss surgery aswell as counceling. At this time, I don`t have Diabetes, no High Blood pressure. Nothing besides, aches and pains and occasional heart burn. I think I should be tested for Sleep apnea, as my family all comment on my snoring. Anyways, I am now looking into WLS and would appreciate any positive and negative feedback.
I am having a hard time finding surgeons in my area.
Please help, my friends and family are so very supportive but none of them truely understand what I`m going thru.
Thank you 
