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been awhile since i been here!im okaytoday..had movie nite lastnite with my kids..had so much fun..been realizing that im ok right now!!all that i've been through in life..im ok,am getting ready to buy a new home with my husband..i just am un happy with my self!!!so i need to stop lying to myself..n get real!!!

im so tired of saying okay..im going to diet..im going to wake up n start eating better!!then 6:oo comes i wake up my kids send them to school..eat breakfast.then go back to sleep!!!ahhhhhhhhh! man i hate beng so depressed!!i feel like giving up!! ive never been this huge in my life!!1 i was always thick, but i walked i exercised..then i got married..then it went down hill from there i put him first, my kids b4 me...then i was like ehh..ill be aight!!well i guess im not!!im still married 7 years later n im finally fed up with being last!god can i gat off my FAT ASS AND JUST GO EXERCISE OR SUMTHING!man i relly dont mind eatting healthy i really like the food..its just every  time we argue or i just had a bad day i run to junk food!!!im a chocoholic!!since i was a kid i was giving junk to comfort my pain..well my fat ass is tired of eating!!

i am so tired of waking up every morning hating who ive become, i dont know how it ended up this way!! i guess getting married n taking care of 3 kids will do it!i just been pushing myself back to long...i think im finally ready to put me first..for once!!