2.5 weeks out and things look bleak

Aug 22, 2010

Well, I got my sleeve 2.5 weeks ago. Although I have lost 20 pounds (YAY!) I am pretty miserable right now. First the awful liquid diet, now I'm on purees but can't seem to eat anything (everything tastes gross), and all the various protein supplements I have tried all gross me out to the point of puking. I'm also having major problems getting enough liquids. I'm also having trouble getting all my vitamins and supplements down. Overall, I am beginning to wonder if I did the right thing.

I worry:
Will it get better?
Am I going to get manourished?
Is all my hair going to fall out?
Will I ever be able to eat a meal in under 30 minutes?
Will I ever be able to eat more than 3 bites without feeling full?
Am I ever going to be able to get in 70g of protein without using the horrid supplements?

I worry if I did the right thing. I wonder if this is really better than being  fat. Most of all, I worry that I will only lose the oft-quoted 70% of excess weight lost - that wouldnt even get me under 200! All this money (I'm self pay) and anguish and not even be able to get out of plus size clothes would really suck.

I'm hoping for some light at the end of the tunnel. I'm hoping that it will all get better and I will be able to eat "normal" (i.e. more than 2 bites) amounts, get in all my liquids yet still observe the no drinking rule, get all my vitamins in AND drink a protein shake that I might actually like. But consideirng that it seems like I'm not doing anything right right now, I'm afraid I will fail at this too. :(

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