Billie R.
My name is Billie Richards I am 30 years old and 238lbs which is down from 245lbs that I was about 5 months ago. I live in Winslow, Maine with my husband and two kids.
I have been overweight for as long as I can remember. Being an overweight kid for me was difficult for me because all my siblings were a "normal" weight. I have heard enought fat jokes to last me the rest of my life. The sad part is most of the jokes were from my Mom. I was the fat kid in class. You know, the one that was always made fun of and picked on.
I look and feel completely disgusting. I have tried everything I can to lose weight, but it ends in failure. All the pills and fad diets were such a waste of money. I really try hard to eat right and I do go to the gym yet the pounds never budge.
My children are the most important thing in my life besides my husband and it breaks my heart into a million pieces when they want me to go outside and play in the snow with them and I don't because I get too tired too fast. We can't run around in the yard and do cartwheels together. I sit and watch them do it. Oh how I would love to be doing those cartwheels with my daughter.
I fear my life will be short and I will miss my babies growing up. I can't stomach the thought of not being here for them. I pray for a miracle.
I don't want to be Miss America. I just want to be healthy and normal.
No more aching feet, knees and back.
My family has a HIGH rate of diabetes and high blood pressure. My father, uncle and grandfather all died at the age of 49 from heart failure. My father and uncle were both also diabetic. My grandmother died of diabetes at the age of 59.
I just don't want this to be me.
