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to post our pictures from the Cinco De Mayo dinner on here. I put everything on Xanga and MySpace and forget about my poor OH Profile. Warning: They are taken with a camera phone, not the greatest of shots.

Here they are:


Me & Robin


Jill & Corny


Joy & Tricia


Robin & Hubby


and the magnificent Sheila!!!

I didn't get one of Jill's hubby or Corrin's friend because they were engorged in their own conversation, leaving their "others" alone. Poor babies, hehehehe! I'll get'em next time. I love the fact that we can all get together, it's lots of fun.

Isn't it a great number? It is for today because I can wear it on my butt finally! Although I don't fit in ALL 14's, I do fit in some!!! Here I thought I was going to be in an 18 forever and all I had to do was TRY! 

It's so weird to be stuck at the same weight, but still changing. Everyone keeps telling me how much smaller I'm getting yet I don't see it and the scale isn't moving. I guess the inches are. I'll have to measure again. Last night it didn't move either. VERY WEIRD.

I don't know how to deal with the compliments anymore either. I just keep saying Thank You, but its getting harder to deal with. I'm hearing "Skin and bones", "Bean pole", "Ethiopian", etc. I'm sooo far from that. I still have 20 pounds to my surgeons goal and 32 to mine. I don't think I'm going to lose that 20 by my year. I only have 70 days left, but we'll see. You never know with this surgery.

I'm happy. Welcome to my rollercoaster ride!

with myself. I've been promising myself to get the gym and I STILL haven't been since before I got sick. Some days its because I'm still sick, others are because my schedule is too busy, but all in all, I need to do it. I'm not going to make my quota and I'm not getting enough exercise. Physically I feel like shit. Mentally, I feel like shit. 

I've got to turn this around. I love life. I love that I've lost a lot of weight. I'm so much healthier. I'm just not done. I don't want to teeter at 200 pounds. I feel like I'm failing and I'm letting it affect everything. My marriage is going to shit in a hand basket. 

The positives: I love my friends, I have a great support system. My brother is living with me and I love that. My son lights up my life. He's taking a lot of my energy, but worth every second of it. It will turn around. It's just a part of this rollercoaster I've lived my entire life on.

Tomorrow is our OH Cinco De Mayo Dinner, I'm very excited to see all my local peeps! {{{Robin, Corn, Joy, Dana, Jill, Jenn, etc.}}} It's so nice to have them in my life. Now if I could just afford my new digital camera, I would be a REAL happy camper.

Things are better. I'm super grateful that I didn't gain 40 pounds back during my gym absence. I'm gonna try and sneak over there today for a quick walk. I've got a volleyball game tonight, so I don't have a lot of time to spare. I can't believe I'm still 201. I did really well with the carbs until Saturday. Sunday, I ate whatever I wanted pretty much. I thought for sure when I stepped on the scale this morning that I would've gained, but I was still sitting pretty at 201. THANK GOD.

I'm soooooo hungry right now. I don't know why. I just wish it would go away. In the meantime I just continue to shovel yogurt and cottage cheese down my throat to kill the hunger. The calories and carb are low and the protein is high.

I'm glad its almost 5 oclock!

The diet works. I'm down 2 pounds and I'm on my period.

Thanks, Jill!!!

Thanks to Jill I've been given a new diet to try. I'm going to kill this plateau, hopefully. Its basically what I eat now, I just have to eliminate fruits, goldfish, and chex mix. I'm only eating meat, poultry, fish, green beans, yogurt, cottage cheese, LF cheese, SF Popsicles, coffee, green tea, and water.

It's that time of the month for me, so I probably won't see much of an improvement until next week, but hopefully I can make the 10 days. The weekends are the hardest for me because I go out to eat ALOT.

I hope this works.
Wish me luck!

and not in the photo shop! I'm so irritated with myself. I gained at least 3 pounds back, not sure because my scale is being screwy. Either way, I've definitely gained and I even cut out candy and peanuts this week. No difference. I don't know if I should eat crappily again to see if I'm starving my body or if I need to seriously cut back on something else. I think I'm following my numbers correctly. I'm eating approximately 1000 calories a day, between 30 & 40 fat grams, 100 carbs, at least 60 grams of protein, lots of liquid, etc. I know I could up my liquid and protein, but everything is dead on. I'm just grumpy. I tried to cheer myself up by measuring inches and the only thing that has changed since the last time 6 weeks ago was I lost an inch in my neck, Whoooopeeee. Okay, a loss is a loss, but I really don't care about my neck. 

Whine fest over.

Guess what? I lost 3.5 more pounds over the weekend. I'm at 205.5 and the thought of hitting Onederland & The Century Club is just baffling. I realize I only have 18 weeks to make my goal of 169 and that I might not make it, but this is a tremendous goal that I will be so proud to complete. I promise to quit bitching for a while when I get to 199! It's probably been at least 10 years since I've been in the 100's, incredible.

Again, thanks for listening and lending me support. It works!

Amber

P.S.
I just updated my BMI and I'm OVERWEIGHT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEK.

209.5, baby!!!

I know that I try to convince myself this is it, I'm not losing anymore weight. I need to realize that it has just slowed down significantly but I still will continue to drop as time goes by. 30 more pounds to go for the surgeon's goal. 40 for mine! I'm very happy. Hopefully I will continue to drop and keep it together in my head!!!

Thanks for all your support, guys, you rock!

I had such a great time meeting with these ladies. We ranged from 5 years Post-OP to Pre-OP. It was great seeing how everyone has progressed. Add a little gossip, good food, talk about plastics and it made for a perfect relaxing evening. I don't recall one awkward moment. We all meshed really well and I can't wait for the next one. Here are a couple of pics that I took:

This is Robin and her jug of water!


This is Christine, Minette, and Robin



This is Corrin, Dana, and myself!



These pictures aren't the greatest, but there was very low lighting and my poor little camera did th e best that it could!!!