BM220
Ugly Day
May 15, 2008
Most days I wake feeling pretty good but every once in awhile I have an "ugly day." Today is one of those days when nothing fits and I just feel yucky!
I haven't steped on a scale for fear of what it might say but I have been activly trying to loose weight. I have been eating better. I just wish I could get to the gym more often. After a 12 hour shift and a very active 2 year old to get home to I just can't make myself do it. Brooklyn is w/ grandpa again this weekend so I think I will go tonight after work... a little gym time is better then no gym time.
Today for breakfast I had a SlimFast, for lunch I had another SlimFast and a Hot Pocket....
I haven't steped on a scale for fear of what it might say but I have been activly trying to loose weight. I have been eating better. I just wish I could get to the gym more often. After a 12 hour shift and a very active 2 year old to get home to I just can't make myself do it. Brooklyn is w/ grandpa again this weekend so I think I will go tonight after work... a little gym time is better then no gym time.
Today for breakfast I had a SlimFast, for lunch I had another SlimFast and a Hot Pocket....
Mother's Day
May 11, 2008
It's Mother's Day and I have to work... my baby is w/ grandma and grandpa two hours away from me so I'm a little sad today. 
I was just adding a few pics to my profile and noticed just how out of control my weight has become. 300 lbs... how did it happen?! I remember telling myself that I would never get to this point and here I am. I'm starting to hate myself. Nothing is working and I need help. Someone gave me the name of a WLS friendly doc in Slo... I looked him up and he takes Blue Shield. I'm going to call tomorrow and see if I can get in to see him.... cross your fingers!
