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My children are my life and right now I am afraid I will not live to see them grown. I have been thinking about this for about 1 year (having gastric bypass). In the beginning my husband was not supportive he was afraid I would die, the past few months we have talked a lot. I tell him I am afraid of weighing 300 pounds and that I am afraid I am going to die from my weight. I do not have co morbidities at this time but I do realize I am well on my way. My mom is overweight as most of her family is. She has had breast cancer, diabetes, high blood pressure, high cholesterol. I can see my following very closely in her footsteps if I don’t do something. I lost my dad in October to heart disease he was not fat by any means but he has battled triglycerides for years he had open heart surgery in 2003 and then his triglycerides were out of site. I can see me heading down these roads if I don’t do something now…. I know this will not fix all my problems. I have always been a big girl even in grade school I was always bigger than most in 8th grade my mom and I joined weight watchers and l lost quite a bit of weight. Until I met my husband when we married in 1988 I weighed 210 pounds. Then I went to nursing school my weight continued to climb. In 1996 I wanted a child so I probably weighed about 235 when I got pregnant and delivered at about 200. Then the next year I got up to 265. Started herbal life got down to 180 and then started back to RN school and got up to about 240 had 2 other children and weighed about 240-260 for a while. Then started having to take prednisone for asthma and man did my weight go up. The heaviest I have been is probably 310. I cannot even stand to look at myself I am sooo big. No matter how I lay to sleep it hurts after a while because of all the weight I carry around. I have noticed at work that my knees and feet have started to hurt. I am sure it’s from my 130-150 pound frame carrying around 300 + pounds. I have prayed for God to open all the right doors if this is what I am suppose to do and if not to shut a door so it will not happen. I know there are risk and hazards of surgery but there is also risk and hazards of being this FAT. I believe I have chosen an excellent surgeon and if it is meant to be it will be. I realize this is a life changing process and I have to follow my leader so to speak and I believe I can do this. I know I will have to eat right and the right amount and exercise.
