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I know that it has been sometime since I last wrote but these past months have really been hard.  In March my 15 yr old son had his tonsils removed and his blood pressure went to stroke level in recovery and is now on meds for bp problems.  He is not over weight but tall 6"1 1/2....the same day that he had surgery my brother died from brain cancer that evening.  Then once I went back to work my job was on the line due to down sizing so I lost my priamary job, lost 3/4's of my income and now working full time in the pharmacy at Walmart fixing to start back to college in June.  Oh and due to economy, and loss of income my son and I have moved in with my parents waiting for low income apartments.  I am on the list for one close to my folks they are nice ones.  So I have been losing 5lbs and then gaining 5lbs all this time.  I pray that I have finally gotten through all this and will continue loosing.  I have not enjoyed this roller coaster.  I hope the next time I write in that it will be more happy news and that I will have lost more weight.

Wow,  this has been a great experience for me.  I feel great and love how everyone notices the changes in me almost daily.  I have great support in family, friends, and co workers.  I added the weight tracker to my page the other day and was very pleased to find out that I am 82.2 pounds away from my goal weight......I actually got tears in my eyes just to even know that I can actually dream of this time in my life.  Only those of us that are traveling this road can relate to what we feel.  But I am so looking forward to the day that I reach my goal and have my body tucks done and really look and feel healthy.  I know that my primary care doctor is so happy and very proud of my accomplishment with the lapband.  He just beams and is already calling me skinny.......lol I just love it.  I am hoping to post some new pictures soon to show the difference since I have begun my journey.  Have a great day to all.

Wow it has been a while since I have updated info.  I have hit a rough spot had to have a little removed from the lapband due to tooooo much stress.  I have lost aroune 60lbs but think the holiday might have done a little damage.....lol what holiday doesn't.  It did feel good to eat a lot less than I used to and I did not suffer or hurt from being overstuffed like the rest of the family.......lol that part was kind of fun........I am in need of a fill but can't do that right now.  The stress seems to be building instead of decreasing.  I have a close family member that I will be loosing with in the next 90 days due to cancer, finances, and just moved to try to save money, I am now trying to find a second job so hopefully I will get that very soon and that will help with finances and I am studying to take a huge test for medical coding in the hopes of working one job........wow changes are coming in abundance......never dreamed when I did this that it could bring me to all these changes......I don't mean the finances ect I mean the changes in me.....for the most part they have all been good changes. this is the best thing that I have ever done for myself.  I am looking forward to get past the holiday season and starting a new year and getting smaller.

Wow who would have thought that between April and August you could loose 53lbs.  I stopped by my docs office and weighed in and found out that is what I have lost since my surgery.  I am sooooooooo excited and wish I had done this years ago.  Now I am even more pumped about loosing the rest.  I feel better and look forward to seeing less of me down the road..............

Well to date I am almost 2mths post opp......I am feeling great and have lost 46 pounds.  I have found that the group meetings are very helpful.  It is helping me to uderstand the process of the fills so much better.  I thought that I was doing something wrong cause I am not feeling restricted and know that I am eating less food but more than a half a cup.  It has been great loosing but the learning experience has been great as well. I enjoy a daily date with my dad and we take a walk together every afternoon.  Due to my dad having alzheimers it is important to get him out and good for me as well.  I have joined Alzheimers Assoc.. and will be doing a walk in Oct 3.1 miles.  My sis and I are putting together a team and we are called Love Remembers.........I am really excited about it and pray that we can earn plenty of money.  I go in for my second fill June 21 just 4 days before my oldest childs birthday........she will be 25.........I am past ready and beginning to start working with some weights and an ablounge at home in the evenings.  I am praying that this will help my stomach some.  If anyone has any ideas for stomach exercises please let me know never hurts to ask. if someone knows something different.

Well I go for my first fill this Thurs the 10th.  I have had this weekend alone and of course self doubt starts creeping in.  I know that this is a tool but I have failed at soooooo many other diets......I do not want to fail at this and I know that it all has to do with me using this tool to the fullest of my advantage, but my mind is telling me that I am going to fail like all the other times.  I think this is something that I am really gonna have to pray about and once I start seeing clothes change and body really change then I will finally realize that this can be done.  I have been so big for so long that I can not see myself as small but I know that my God can and through Him I will achieve all that I need to.

I am going back to the doctor today to have my left lung area checked.  The hospital sent me home without that little breathing thing that you are supposed to use after surgery, and I ran fever in the evenings for two days a few days after surgery.  I am not sure if this is why I am having the problem but they wanted me to come in and get checked today.  Kind of glad cause now I can see how close or how far off my scales are to the docs..............other than the lung problem I am feeling great.  I am really tired but we are having rainy weather here and it just relaxes me so.  I am also going to my first support meeting tonight.  So all in all I am kind of excited.

Well I weighed in with the doc on the 23rd of this month and I lost 16lbs my first week out.  This is Sunday April 30 and if my scales are close to the docs I have lost 23.5lbs..........I have felt great since my surgery.    I am looking forward to watching me melt away and start this new life.........kind of wish that I had done this a long time ago........but I will be happy with the timing that I have had this done.  I will get my first fill on May 10th will see what I have lost at that time
Brenlee 

whoo who:  Well the 16th has long past and I am happy to say that all went great.  I have really all in all felt pretty darn good.  I have not had any nausea, vomiting, and have not taken any pain medicine.  I did run a low grade fever two nights in a row but other than that I have rested, crocheted, and walked with my dad.  Wow I never dreamed that it would be this easy.  Now I wonder what is in store for me in the morning.  This is Sunday and I have my first visit with the doc since surgery.  I have found mysself falling into that same old sand bag trap.  I am praying that I have lost and then in the back of my mind I know that I am still swollen from the surgery and oxygen they implod you with and start trying to prepare myself for a gain.  UGH how we are our on worst doubting thomas and enemy.  Well here is looking to the new me soon to come.
Brenda

My surgery has now been set for April 16th.....I have done my preop appointment and now await the day of surgery........Funny how you push to get this approved through insurance and now that all is done I am excited to begin my new life but then again the nervousness has kicked in............I will not back out but the unknown is kind of scary...........03-19-07 Brenda  (brenlee)