CaliforniaKat
Hi everyone. I'm new the site and just getting things set up. A bit about myself...Im 22 years old, female, from California. I've been overweight all my life as many of you have and know all about the struggles. I asked my doctor about WLS back in July, was referred to a weight loss type doctor, started his program in July till now which is Oct/25/2008, lost a few pounds, was directed to a surgeon, had a lot of tests and was approved.
Winded paragraph I know! My surgery date is December 8th. Its still not really sunk in. Im not very excited because its still a bit of a ways off. My post-op is on the 24th and thats two weeks before the surgery date so I think Ill be on that all liquid diet. Fine by me.
Since I turned 18 its as though my life stopped dead in its tracks. I know things will be so different after WLS but I cant imagine how it will feel. Im always very polite and pleasant to be around because I never wanted to be in the way or looked down upon. I, of course, want to stay that way but also have this confidence that will inspire others and help them trust me.
I was always the shy one. Others have "tired" to force me out of it, which made it worse as I got older. I tired to avoid people or embarrassing situations. I've never been out on a date, let alone had a boyfriend. Though some lonely times have passed I found that Im glad it worked out that way. Ive learned so much through watching others around me and believe I will be so much better in a relationship. Ive watched others around me fail in their relationships, or go through some odd troubles. The amount of things Ive learned; how to treat others, not wanting to change others, listening, letting the other person be their own person and expecting the same in return and countless other things, are so priceless.
I find I can make friends very easily, through school and my intership I always had people around me who could count on me but after those events ended I ended all contact. My friends from college were only college-friends, not personal friends, and the same goes for those at my internship. I feel that if I dont have my life together enough to take care of myself, I wont be there for any of my friends or even boyfriends.
Through this WL journey Ive found that no one truly understands besides those who are going through it or have gone through it already. My mom doesnt ask any questions. She used to make comments about why do I need so many tests, or why is it taking so long. I believe she thinks of it as a quick-fix, drive-through operation. While it would be nice to have someone, anyone around, to talk to and bounce ideas back and forth about whats coming up next...Im afraid the only ones Ive been able to find are on OH - you all are so great! Ive never found a place so addicting and warm. Ive never been drawn to a blog/community site like this one. I cant wait to be able to give my personal expierences from after surgery or even make a new topic about my one year mark or my 100lb mark.
You all understand me and I understand you. If there are any out there who want a little WL-buddy or penpal type, let me know! We're all in this together.
