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Yesterday I went in for my 3 week check up and it went pretty good.  Im cleared to start lifting weights, and He put me into the pureed stage of foods.  One thing that he told me that I dont agree with is that after 12 months I wont lose anymore.  He said if I lose after a year that it will be because Im sick.  I say BS on that one.  I know lots of people online that are more than a year out and are still losing.  Its not like our tool magically stops working after a year.
I also asked what my goal should be, because my grandma kept bugging me to get a number.  My goal was 180.  He said if I get my BMI down to 30 that would be good.  Well, 30 would be 180, so  my goal was right on :)  Ive lost 17 pounds since surgery, only 151 to go :)   Ive lost 70 pounds so far, Ive never lost that amount of weight before.  its exciting.

Well, yesterday I went and ran some errands, and it was harder than I thought it was going to be.  I went to walmart first, and about halfway through my time there I started hurting pretty bad.  I finsihed up there and  put my stuff in the car, and sat in the car for awhile drinking water.  Sitting helped, then I went on to walgreens to get my perscription filled, and to GNC to get some protein.  Once I got home and rested a bit I was fine. 
Later in the evening Jason and I went to Ross and I got the same pains again.  I guess I just need to still take it easy, and not walk so much.  I wonder if pushing the carts had anything to do with it?

I came home last thursday.  Im feeling pretty good now.  I still have some pain, but its not bad at all.  A couple of my incisions are a little infected, but Ive been cleaning them and putting neosporin on them.  Theyre closing up pretty good.  I didnt have stitches, the doc glued my incisions shut, so some of them opened up a little bit before they got a chance to heal shut. 
Im totally sick of liquids.  Ive been doing optifast for the last 4 months, and Im still on protein shakes, and clear liquids.  I get to transition into full liquids on the 30th.  Im craving something salty, so Ive been drinking broth.  Im not hungry at all, and its hard for me to get my 3 shakes in a day plus all my water.  When I transition into foods I dont know how Im going to get everything in.  Im going to have to set my alarm in the morning to wake up to have breakfast.  Ive gotten into the habit of sleeping in til 11 or 12, and I need to get out of that habit. 
Ive been trying to walk some every day.  Im going to start walking outside, the treadmill is getting boring, and I need the fresh air.
We're going to get a gym membership as soon as Im cleared for it.  I think at my 3 week appointment Ill be cleared for lifting things again.  Ive been kinda bad and have been picking up my cat.  I dont pick him up when Im standing, only when Im sitting down, so hopefully that isnt too bad.  I still cant bend down and pick things up off the floor, it hurts too bad still.  Jason has to help me get my pants and socks on still.  Hopefully next week I will be able to do that on my own. 
This past weekend I was having some buyers remorse.  I really was upset that I cant eat for awhile.  I thought I was going to be ok with it since I had been on the optifast for so long, but on the optifast I could eat something if I wanted to.  Now if I want to eat something, I cant for awhile.  I knew that this was the way it had to be before I had the surgery, its just different living it.  And I dont have any regrets at all.

I dont know how much weight ive lost so far.  My scale is wacky and doesnt give consistent readings.  I ordered another one on ebay like 2 weeks ago, and it still hasnt gotten here.  The seller emailed me and told me that she's been having computer problems, and will mail it out as soon as she can.  Im giving her another two weeks before I file a complaint with paypal and ebay.
Well, its getting kinda late, and I should get to bed.  Ill write more later.

Well, not at my home, but at my sister-in-laws house.  We will be staying here for a few days until I feel like going out to Jasons parents cabin.
Im sore right under my right breast.  The nurse said that it was the gas.  I dont hurt as much as I thought I would.
I hurt really bad coming out of the OR.  There was this tremendous pressure and pain right under my ribs and it didnt go away for several hours.  once that left me, I was much better.  I got up and walking last night, and the PT said that I did well enough that I didnt need another session with him, so after that I went walking the halls with my nurse.  Today I walked some more with Jason.  I didnt sleep much last night, so when I got home I took some pain meds and took a two hour nap.  And thats about it.  Ive been sipping on shakes most of the day, and ice chips too.

Well, today is my surgery day!  Make room for me on the losers bench, Ill be there in a few hours.  Its 4:55 right now, I dont have to be at the hospital until 7:30, but I cant sleep anymore.  I went to bed quite early last night, but I didnt fall asleep until very late.  I probably only got a few hours sleep.  Thats ok, Ill be able to sleep some when i get to the hospital, and I know Ill be sleepy after surgery. 
Im excited, and nervous too.  Im hungry too, lol.  I wont be hungry after surgery though.
I have everything I need for the rest of the week here, soups, shakes, water bottles, ice, blender, vitamins etc. 
I cant believe that its happening today.  It seems like it was just yesterday that I was fighting with Jasons insurance to cover it, and then I fought for disability.  I remember back then it seemed like the surgery would never happen.  and now its here and Ill have a new life before noon.
If anyone is reading this, please keep me in your prayers.
Ill write another post when I get home!

I had my preop appointment today, and I lost the 10 pounds that i needed to :)  Im having my surgery on Monday, and Im also having my gallbladder out as well.  Im really excited and nervous.  My dad is coming to the hospital to be with me.  Im glad hes going to take the time and drive over.  Its like a 5 hour drive for him.  My surgery is tenativley set for 9am, Ill get a call on Friday to find out what time it is for sure and what time i need to be there. 

I bought more protien shakes today, and I bought two sippy cups at walmart so I can sip sip sip after the surgery.  Tomorrow Im going to GNC to see how much the vitamins cost there.  If theyre cheaper than the Drs office then Ill just get them there.  Its a lot more convenient as well.  I looked at the prices on bariatriceating.com and they were only a few cents less than my drs office, plus I have to pay for shipping, so it doesnt make any sense to buy them online when I can get them here.

I had my labs appointment yesterday, and I asked them to weigh me.  According to their scale I had only lost 3 pounds, not 9.  I bid on a new scale last night on ebay.  Im pissed off that I spent $40 for this scale I have now, and its not at all accurate.  I really hope that this new scale is better.  Its a dial scale, not a digital one, so I hope that its more accurate.  Im thinking that the company that made the scale I have now didnt make it strong enough to hold my weight, even though it said it held up to 400 pounds.
So now I need to lose 7 pounds by tuesday :(  Im gonna drink lotsa water and no extra stuff like pudding or big train drinks, and Im gonna walk every day.

Today Im doing better.  I weighed myself today, and my scale says Im down 9 pounds.  My next appointment is Friday, and then i have my preop appointment on next tuesday.  Im pretty sure Ill be able to lose at least 1    pound before then.  Im hoping that my scale is still off and is reading higher than the drs scale. 

Yesterday I had my first NSV.  I was able to buckle the seatbelt in Jasons moms car.  It had a lot of extra slack too. :)  Jason says he can really see the weight loss, and we were at his parents cabin this weekend and Erin said she could see that Ive lost weight too.

Im kinda scared that I wont have lost the 10 pounds needed before my next appointment on the 30th.  I havent been doing optifast good, and now i need to be on all optifast.  Im only 2 weeks away from my surgery (provided I lose the weight) and Im freaking out.  Im nervous about the surgery, and Im nervous that I havent done enough to lose the weight.  I weighed myself on my scale here at home, and it said that I had gained 8 pounds.  I know that cant be right, because I havent been eating that bad.  I really hope that my scale is messed up.  I want to weigh myself again and see what it is, but Im afraid it will say a higher number, and Im on my period, so Im afraid Im carrying a lot of water weight too.  Im just going to stick to the optifast these next two weeks and hope and pray that I lose the amount of weight that Im supposed to lose.

So today is the day!  Im going back on all optifast to prepare for the surgery.  For the last two weeks before my surgery I have to go on all liquids, that means no optifast bars too. :(  The bars really help me throughout the day.  I guess Ill just chew more gum then. 

Ive got another kidney stone :(  I was at the er for 8 hours saturday night.  When we got there they had just got an ambulance in, and then another ambulance came in, so the all the people in the waiting room had to wait longer.  It really sucked we  had to wait for 5 hours before I got a room, and then another hour before I actually got any pain medicine.
After the hospital we went to walmart because i had to get some pads, and I went to the bathroom there and there were three tiny stones in the toilet when i got up.  Today there was a stone in the toilet as well, so I hope thats the end of those!