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As of 2 days ago I am at a total of 97 lbs gone!!!!!!  It feels great!!  I took a trip and wasn't even scared if I would fit in the airplane seat.  I wasn't even squished.  
Last month I went shopping at a "normal" store and cried.  I was driving up to Old Navy and was scared, telling myself "you're gonna be disappointed, nothing will fit" etc and then I said "NO, you know it will fit"  and I cried.  I pulled myself together and bought an XL shirt.  I was so happy I went to Macy's and the gap after that.  I no longer need Lane Bryant, Lane was my security blanket and she is gone now.  It's a little scary but I am so happy now and clothes are so much cheaper!
 

So far I have lost a total of 83 lbs, I feel great physically.  I exercise 4-5 x per week, I get my water and protein in.  My only issue is the emotional roller coaster.  My sex drive is insane, I look at every guy in the gym like a piece of meat, i feel like a teenage boy.  Today just cried, a friend didn't ask me to go on break and I cried.  He simply forgot, no big deal normally but today it was an issue.  My hormones are WHACKED and I can't stand it.  I have an appt with my reg pcp at the end of the month for the girly check up and hopefully some pills can help me out because I feel like I am going crazy.  It seems like only 50% of my thoughts are rational.

Well today is my one month out of surgery and I have lost 22 lbs since surgery and a total of 69 lbs!  I am feeling tired but overall pretty good.  Water is going good, protein is good.  Not much to complain about except the lack of clothes that fit and this is a good problem to have :-) 

Well, 16 days post op and 20 lbs are gone!  Vanished!!  Where does it go?  I certainly don't pee or poop out over a pound a day.  I know it is being burned as energy or something like that but it is crazy!!

I am really looking forward to pureed foods on 4/3, who thought I would ever say that?  I am walking daily 30 min-1hr, pain is minimal if not non-existant.  I felt my first tummy spasms, that did hurt a little but went away after 10-20 seconds.  

I am getting pretty bored at home.  I will become a domestic diva by the time I go back to work, ha!  I go back on 4/9 and am really looking forward to it.  I can only watch so much TV and read so many magazines and books.  I miss my friends at work :-(  I have seen a couple of them but I am ready to go back.

Well, I am still alive, have not gotten sick, threw up or dumped.  I have been on a clear liquid diet up until 2 days ago.  That is when I saw the surgeon for my follow up and he said I can start on cream soups and such.  thank goodness because I was losing energy by the minute and i couldn't sleep.

The first fudgesicle I had (low fat no sugar added of course) was to die for.  Tomato soup was unbelievable.  I also have started on protein, I'm just putting it in light soymilk (reg skim milk makes me gassy and bloated) and I feel so much better.  I have energy again.

I have also been walking daily and really enjoy it.  The weather has been great so that makes it easier and if its's cold I walk in a mall.  As of 3/20/07 I had lost 9 lbs so that makes a total of 55 lbs since I started the process.  YAY ME!!!!!!

So I am 4 days post op and doing okay.  I don't know why but I never really thought about the pain afterwards.  OMG!!  I had no idea what gas pain felt like until I got out of surgery.  WOW!!!  Unbelieveable!  I had one nurse that was an absolute bitch.  I told her I hurt and  I was crying and all she said was "you've had enough pain medicine"  in a really snotty tone.  Walking did not seem to help and I cursed out the nurse who made me do it and kept telling me to stand up straight and not look down, it was the same bitch.  Then later that night  I had a great nurse who kept me doped up, still hurt but was tolerable and I was able to walk.  Even through yesterday I had gas pain.  I spent all yesterday sitting uprigtht and that bubble that would not go away.  It woke me up at night  every couple hrs, just plain hurt. I also have a reaction to anethesia where my muscles react and I can't move so I was dealing with that up until yesterday.  I was kinda a mess

Now today is a different kind of feeling.  I was able to sleep for 4 hrs at a time, but woke up when the meds wore off.  I also had to sleep on my side, laying on my back felt like I was stretching things too much.  So I slept on my side with a pillow  propping up my bloated belly it seemed to help.  And I dreamt about food, I ate tuna in my dream and then something happened and my tummy hurt so in my dream my boby wasn't ready for food and I was gonna be sick.  

I know I am not hungry, my tummy is the size of a walnut and swollen but I still feel like I should have food.  I have to be on a liquid diet for 3 weeks.  I will say there are alot of food commercials and it really is food porn.  I so badly want to watch shows about food, cooking shows, keep in mind I never watach them.  But I want to now just to be near food I think.  Very bizarre.  

Also, crushing tablets and swallowing them is disgusting.  I did not expect it to taste good but it is even worse, I have to do it 3x a day.  

My belly feels bloated as I write and it feels likes my insides are twisted but it doesn't "hurt".  

That is my update for now, I'll keep chugging the liquids and hope for the best!

By the way, weighed 250 at the hospital

So surgery is on Monday and I am suprisingly calm.  I am excited but not nervous.  I have been following the surgeons rules.  I passed the preop physical, ekg, and gall bladder exam.  I am ready!

I went to speak with the surgeon today and they scheduled me!!!!!!!  I am having surgery in 10 days, MARCH 12!!!!!  It was a total fluke that I got in today to see him, someone cancelled.  Another fluke, he wasn't suppposed to work on March 12th but opened it up that day!!!  WOW!!!  10 days!!  I really cannot believe it is finally going to happen!

 

I AM FINALLY APPROVED - I WAS SO HAPPY I CRIED!!!  YAY YAY YAY  Appt with surgeon tomorrow!!!YAY YAY YAY   

Did I mention how happy I am!

still waiting - not happy, not at all