CarolCelikCFT

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One of the things I'm proudest of is falling off the wagon and getting right back on.  That's the big difference between before surgery and after. Once I see those few pounds creep back on, I get more prepared in my food choices, go to the gym daily, watch my water and vitamins and just take overall better care of myself. Is that self-love? "They" always talk of letting yourself get fat as a lack of self-love. I don't know that I ever REALLY felt that, but I definitely care more now- so maybe it is. It's just so much easier to see the light at the end of the tunnel when you're ALMOST there as opposed to across the country- which being 130 lbs overweight feels like. Being oth ese sites OH & Sparkpeople really keeps you in control. It seems the better I do, the better I WANT to do. I'm accountable to myself, and I try harder when I see my goals and outcomes in black & white. So that's my thought for the day. Bye!

Holy cow. What is going on? I want to be a runner! a r-u-n-n-e-r. This is crazy... but I'm going to do ti. I see there are people here who have already done it, so I will use them as inspiration. Just when I think my life could not be any different than it was, something else comes along to change it all up again. For some reason (probably holding on to that fat me) I can't seem to make myself run at the gym while on the treadmill I feel lik the whole gym might start thumping (I feel the earth move under my feet). But i sure can run outside. Wait. it's cold. I hate the cold. Hmmm.. This might be a problem. I'm gonna figure this out, but for right now I am on my way to workout a pre-op who needs to lose a lot of weight to be allowed to have the surgery. I hope she is getting close! See you later! I wonder who I'm talikg to anyway?