Cathie N.
Ha! Ha! Ha!
In case anyone is wondering .. i'll be 8 weeks out thursday and as of this morning i've lost 42 lbs.! And, I Feel Great!
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I love it when he hugs me and says I feel tiny.
For some reason though i'm still really insecure about my scars.
I went to Myrtle Beach for Bike Week last weekend. It was "OK", way too much of too old, too flabby, too little fabric for my eyes to see. My mom rides but I wouldn't consider her a biker chic. But "they" definitely got a way about 'em.
Came home on Mother's Day and got a most wonderful book about Dinosaurs. Thanks B!
Oh, and the fat one was bringing salads to work all week but I caught her sneaking candy bars out of the break room and then begged me to get her a McFlurry when I went to the bank. I gladly obliged.
She's eyeing me up and down every day. She checks out my butt more than my husband. She's getting weird.
5 WEEKS OUT
I SENT MY RESUME OUT TO SIX DIFFERENT PLACES TODAY. I HOPE I CAN GET AWAY FROM THAT HELL SOON. I'M STARTING TO THINK THE KIDS AT B'S DAYCARE ARE MORE MATURE THAN MY CO-WORKERS. IT'S MISERY.
GOING TO GROUP THIS WEEK. IM EXCITED. I'VE MISSED TWO AND THIS WILL BE MY FIRST SINCE SURGERY. I MISS BEING AROUND PEOPLE LIKE ME. I WISH THERE WERE 2 GROUPS A MONTH.
Milk of Magnesia
I mean cat food fish!
Why do my blogs have to have titles?
I'm still struggling to get my protein in. I don't know how new post-op's do it. I start my day with an 8 oz protein drink that takes me 2 hours to finish and in between that i'm trying to work in a multi, water, a b-12 and trying to time it just right becasue it'll be lunch soon. Hmm? Obviously what i'm doing isn't enough becasue lately i've been so tired. I mean exhausted to the point that I got home from work at 5:30 and was in the bed by 6pm, slept till 11pm, back in bed by 4am and called in "sick" today. I regret going back to work so soon. Everything was too good too soon. Plus I constantly heard the echo of a co-worker saying "I know you're having major surgery but hurry up and get your ass back to work". My STD was paying me 100% to be out until 4/21 but I felt so great it didn't feel "ok" to be laying around when I could be working.
Thanks mom and dad for instilling good work ethics. 
Had my first lunch outing with the "fat one" and 2 other guys - we went to Nacho Mama's and I just ordered an extra fork with water no lemon. I scraped a few beans off of her plate and ate slowly. Only 2 of the 3 knew about my surgery but he never asked.
When we got back to the office the "fat one" pats me on the arm and says "you did very well, i'm proud of you". Duhh, I've been on this ride before honey, I know what to do. Am I just overly sensitive or does she really need to get off of me? Everday S.O.S. with her.
So since i've been back at work everytime I can't finish what i'm eating I give it to her to finish. And sho nuff - like a stray dog - them vittles' is gone!! muhahahahahaha! Am I trying to make the "fat one" fatter?
I'm going to hell (IF there is such a place) I just know it.
I wanna talk about me, wanna talk about I, wanna talk about...
I've really got to hit the protein hard and even harder at the gym. I'm averaging about 7lb loss per week. WOW!
It's still a struggle to get all the protein in and remember to take the vitamins and when to and not to drink. I noticed today I was gulping my water and thought I might get sick at work. Slow and Easy!
Did go to the gym yesterday but only did 1/2 hour of cardio and spent the rest of the day walking like my grandmother. Not going today - just gonna work out in the yard till I have to pick B up from daycare.
Update: was craving meat so I heated up some canned chili. Took 4 teaspoon bites and DONE. It must've gotten stuck but I layed around in agony for 2 hours, finally threw up and felt much better. That was awful! Lesson learned.
Awww C'mon
Well, yesterday I went back to the gym since surgery, plus a year, LOL.
I did 30 mins of cardio and lower body strength training and it felt great. Going again in a few ...
Dumped again today on Yogurt. And then got home and heated up some cheesy noodles and ate 1 bite too many and threw up. And the bad part is I knew better. I could feel a little twinge of pain in my pissy pouch but I kept on eating.
Old habits.
Hi Ho Hi Ho Back to work I go ..
Apr 07, 2008
4/7/08 - Went back to work today and wasn't disappointed at all ... no one noticed my 20 lb weight loss, all I got was "glad you're back" not "how ya been" of course I knew they didn't give a shit. That was evident by the number of calls I got asking how I was ---- NONE, NOTTA, NOT the first damn call. Anyway, then the other "fat one" in the office asks me to go to lunch and I said no, im not hungry and she says "well, you can go and watch me eat" . AHHHHH! WTF! Hopefully, tomorrow will be better.
Lesson Learned
It was dry, solid, like pooping out of your mouth.
I feel awesome!
4/1/08 - This is incredible! Have been off all of my meds since 3/20, down 17 lbs., I don't HURT like I did before surgery. Why isn't everyone doing this?
Thinking about going back to work on Monday.
I have alot of anxiety about that simply because the lack of support there. One person in particular will try to sabatage my success because she'll be the office fat one.
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