Surgery is Scheduled

May 02, 2009

I've a month to wait, but this has been a waiting experience all along.  I have learned to be very patient, and to continue to live my life using my new skills, making them become habits.  This change is not meant to happen quickly because it will lack permanence.  I am evolving back to something like the shape I once was - like 25 years ago (wow), but the learning/growing/soul part of me is very different.  I have dealt with so many life experiences that have both caused terrible pain and exquisite satisfaction in that time.  I have grown.  When I reach my weight goal, and I WILL reach my weight goal, I hope that I will also continue to grow emotionally and spiritually, and will be able to be the most I possibly can.

I'm a little bit anxious.  I'm sure that the outright fear will come, but I'm nowhere near that.  It's all part of the process, slow, eventual, definite, inevitable.

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