celticfaery
6 Months Already!!
Apr 18, 2013
I can't believe that half a year has gone by!!! Every day that I live with the DS, I truly understand how messed up my body/metabolism was. After my regain, I would force myself to get back on track by cutting the carbs and sticking with protein. My body would resist EVERY TIME! No matter how many times I tried, I would fight to lose and I never lost any more than 18 pounds... Sure, 18 lb loss is great... if you are 140 lbs... But for someone who is super morbidly obese, 18 lbs is nothing. 18 lbs is like taking a really good dump... lol!
But in 6 months, going from 353 down to 267, my mind is officially blown! I can't tell you how long I fought to get back under 300 lbs. All I can say is that I wish I had done this sooner. I've said it before and I'm sure I'll keep saying. Out of all the fears I had about revising to the DS, the biggest one was the commitment to taking the vitamins. I've never been good about taking medication. My biggest problem was consistency. I'm so inconsistent... I knew that my life would depend on me being consistent and I couldn't make that promise. I know myself all too well! But... Honestly... if I can consistently make sure I'm eating 3 meals a day, then I can consistently make sure that my vitamins are taken with each of those meals too. It was just about getting into a routine and sticking with it. And I've done it! I made a promise to myself and my husband that I would take my vitamins consistently and I have. That is such a huge thing for me!!!
I must say that I was scared that this wouldn't work for me. I still have that fear in the back of my mind. Am I shooting for a goal weight that is unrealistic for me? I don't know. I just have to keep making the right choices and using my tool to see where it takes me. But all I really want to focus on is being healthy. Eating the right foods to encourage my health and weight loss. Moving my body to tone and build some muscle. Keep taking my vitamins. Where ever I end up is where I end up. That might be a year from now or 10 years from now. The more I think about getting to my "goal" weight and when it will happen, the more fear I feel. I don't want to live in fear... I just want to live. So I will take this journey one day at a time.... Since that's all that matters anyway.
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