charlotte K.
April 6, 2007 Good Friday and it really is
Well my insurance approved me. I can't believe it. Now I have to have my filter put in, visit my cardiologist, and hemotologist. Anna at Dr. Shinas office is going to try to get this appointments on the same day, sure hope she can I hate to miss any more work than I have to.
I'm so excited I can hardly stand it. Have you ever been so happy about something and no one else around you understands your excitment. That's the way this is with me right now. The girls at work just don't seem to understand how important this is to me. I also don't think they understand the difference it will make in my appearance in the near future. Boy will they be surprised when reality hits.
March 18, 2007 My journey begins
Hi I'm a 56 yr old grandma who is morbidly obese. Next summer Im going to play hop sctooch with my granddaughters.
My weight problems begin with my first pregancy in 1970. I have been fat every since. I'm having lap band surgery as soon as my insurance approves. Tried all the diet plans out there as I sure anyone reading this has.
My family is very supportive. I have two grown sons, seven wonderful grandchildren and a fabulous husband. They are just as excited as I am. My husband and I were both smokers and he has quit smoking with me to help me (4 weeks smoke free) with the help of chantix, I highly recommend it
Going for my pyech, and dietition on the 28th, asked my sister to go with me She had bypass surgery in December 2006, luckily she has an appointment the same day. Maybe we can schedule our trips together. Time is getting closer.
April 9, 2007
Well I have my surgery date June 18, Wow it seems to have gone so smoothly I can't belleve it. I'mm so excited I can hardly disscribe it. One down fall is that not all of my support group is really my support group if that makes sense. One of my friends seems a little resentful, I don't understand this but refuse to let it bring me down. I told everyone that they would be surprised at how things are going to be, you see I feel I have never put myself first and this one time I am and I think it has shocked some people, but I also think that if they were really my friends they would understand. Oh well enough of my bellyaching this is a time for celebration, I have a date to start my life anew.
april 10, 2007
It's official I've moved to the top of the list, not only for surgery but also at work, although the work list isn't as nice a list to be on. I don't know what is wrong except maybe resentment over my up coming surgery. But I'm doing this for myself no one else, guess she will just have to live with it. Oh Well! Only nine more years till retirement and I'll be thina and healthy, sounds great to me.
April 15,2007
Got all my appointments in order vas. and card on May 24, plum on june 1, Surgery schelduled for June 18 th won't be long now, sometimes it feels like forever sometimes like its tomorrow. We're going to Oklahoma City on June 8th to see our two beautiful grandsons and granddaughter going to take the two older granddaughters with us so that they too can visit, it will be good for them. We'll come home on Sat. then on Sunday Bob and I will leave to go to Louisville, stay in a hotel so we will be there for Monday. The only problem I see is that I will have to do the cleansing thing on the trip home from OK, could prove to be interesting. The surgery is all I seem to think about, I try not to say too much about it at work, it seems to be a sore spot. but with it being about all on my mind it is really hard. Gotta go the phone is ringing.
April 23, 2007
Just got off the phone with Ana again, she is probably getting tired of me calling, but its as if I have to confirm that surgery is really going to happen. I started my prenatal vitamins yesterday boy does that seem strange at my age. Stopped drinking pepsi and gave up caffine. There was a time not so long ago that I would have panicked if I had no cigerettes, pepsi or coffee in the house, now I don't really care.
I think things have inproved at work. Maybe I have just come to terms with it, whatever I am more content. I hope they all support my efforts, I really will be disappointed to find otherwise,
Bob is being very helpful, I just hope he realizes that he won't have a Barbie doll when all is said and done. He'll still have (me).
54 days and counting. Thank You God for leading me to this place.
Char
April 24, 2007
Here I am again feeling like june 18th will never arrive, however I do think if I had more people supporting me I would handle the wait better. I just in the last few weeks realized that for years I have been deceiving myself into thinking that these people really cared about me, what an idiot, I now realize they care about nothing but themselves, How in the world did I make to be 56yr old and be so stupid, aside from my family my friend count is (0) today.
April 25, 2007
I had made up my mind to set things right so I came in this morning confident and ready for the fight that was sure to come and just as I prepare to let ur rip, someone mentions that it is secretary's day and that our boss is taking us out to lunch, well I can't very well start a scene now with everyone being so nice, so guess I'll have to get my courage up again some othe day.
Lunch was good.
april 30, 2007
Well I survived another month. Getting closer to my surgery date. Things at work seem a little better this week maybe their are beginning to accept the fact that I am going to do this. Talked to my sister and cousin yesterday who had bypass surgery in Dec. boy they both are looking good can't wait to join them. I have to admit that while everyone was telling them how great they look I was a little envious but I am proud of theim at the same time if that makes sence. Got worried about my meds today and called dr shinna office about my Mirapex I take for rls, I think I can stop everything else but can't go for a week without my leg meds, I'd be all over the place and it wouldn't be pretty. They said i could continue taking it thank God.
May 2, 2007
Thought I would write a little between people comming and going, Sat. is Derby Day, Gods Players is preforming and theri calling for rain. We can only pray. My youngest son, Jake has been diagnosed with achalasia, where the flap at the end of the esphogus does not open properly requiring surgery and if that isn't bad enough three inches of his esphogus is too small which complicates the surgery. I had said nothing in the world would delay my wls but I now have to say that if he has his surgery I will have to be there. Afterall he is my baby even if he is thirty-five . katelynn my youngest granddaughter and Jakes oldest is having her tonsiles removed May 12
May 9, 2007
Well had court today, sometimes that can be so amusing. the characters that appear. I'm 39 days from my surgery day although I'm not as excited as I was It seems that when it rains it pours, and I have always prided myself as being a listener for anyone who needed an ear, Now I need an ear and guess what, there isn't one out there anywhere. People who should notce there's something wrong are too ingrossed with themselves to notce or care. Well I refuse to lower myself to be that way. I'll handle my own problems always have always will. There ain't nothing that they can throw at me that I haven't already in some form already dealt with.
Katelyn came through her tonsiles oK. Brittany is having hers removed on the 18 of May. Jake should find out Monday when he will have his surgery, I know I can't go out there but it sure will be hard to stay away. Do you ever wonder if you love too much? Is that even possible
June 19, 2008
Well, it's one year later, I'm 100 lbs lighter. Life is wonderful. Sometimes when I look in the mirror I don't recognise myself. Everyone has noticed. I feel so much better, have cut way down on my meds, and can work circles around my husband. I have so much energy that I can hardly sleep. Being banded is the greatest thing. Thanks to all for your support.
