ChristinaBain
Hmmmm?
Dec 06, 2010
Well it has really been awhile since I have been on here. I don't really know what has kept me away for so long. I do know that it isn't a good thing. I am now a little over 7 months out since surgery. I have lost a total of 130+ lbs. It's a big number when you look at it but I still struggle everyday with the thought that it isn't enough. I am constantly wondering why it isn't more? I realize that this whole journey is all mental, and that is what I have to fight the most...For the most part I am doing good. I have started going to a gym which makes me feel really good and strong...The eating part is still a struggle for me...I don't like meat so there is my #1 problem. I am getting my 100 grams of protein usually everyday, from food and 69 grams from protein shakes. I find myself totally craving sweets all the time...I didn't think I had a problem before, but i have one now :( Sometimes it totally overwhelms me!. I try to eat the sf popsicles and sf stuff, but sometimes its hard. I also find myself wanting coffee everyday! I was never a coffee drinker so i don't know where that is coming from...Everyday is a new day though and I fight it hard. I am learning how to make this my lifestyle and not just a fad. I believe that the surgery was the right thing for me and I am going to get where I need to be even with all the hard work...I don't even know what to say anymore...I just threw up a bunch of words to help me...I hope someone understands what it all means. Thanks
