christyk007

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A little info about myself - I am a 34 year old mother of 2 awesome boys, 12 and 9. I, as many of you, have been over weight my whole life. When I was little there were always the "cute" comments about whether I would ever lose my baby fat. I had the chubby little cheeks, the tummy, the goofy Dorothy Hamil hair cut I thought was soooo adorable on me. I put up with the comments until when I was 9, I had a little accident with a horse that led to a removal of a bum kidney on my right side. Though genetics are to blame for the whole kidney thing I still haven't gotten the urge to get back up on that horse. The good news was that I lost alot of weight with the surgery, the tummy was gone and I was THIN...almost sickly but still thin. On the way home from the hospital I remember stopping at K-Mart and getting my first pair of skinny jeans with the really cool hot pink swirly stitching on the pockets and a hot pink shirt with netting and glittery gold accents on the shoulder. I felt like the hottest 9 year old around. The older boys in school were checkin' me out and everything. It was the best summer for those few weeks of being skinny, it was all worth it. Even the having to put up with more comments about me finally losing my baby fat and the honesty of how fat people thought I was before the surgery. Can you imagine? I was just a kid but still very aware of my weight and others perception of it.

Ofcourse the weight came back on and then some throughout high school. Another problem that I have is that not only am I overweight but I'm very well built. I am built much more like a man than I am a woman. On the good side of that though is that I've never been much afraid of being assaulted in a dark alley. On the bad side I think I used that also as an excuse for gaining weight. I figured that I would never be small and skinny so why torture myself with diets and giving up the foods I love? Right? Well I went back and forth for years with that attitude. I'd gain weight, become miserable and then struggle to lose it and then start the vicious cycle all over again. I tried the grapefruit diet when I was in grade school because my older sister was trying it. I've done the vegetable soup diet. I've tried different over the counter magic diet pills. My primary doctor has let me try a couple of different weight loss pills knowing they wouldn't work for me, but he tried! I've done the exercise thing. I've walked many, many miles but get frustrated because the weight doesn't fall off. I even tried bulimia once and didn't really like it. :) Kinda gross, I know. I've joined weight watchers a few times but had the most success with Atkins a couple of years ago. I say "success" because I lost 25 lbs while on it and I could still eat, I wasn't starving myself! How cool is that? I felt great. I was getting alot of compliments, felt great about myself, I even had energy! I sold all of my fat clothes and was convinced that I would never get that fat again!!! Well typical of me everything was all well and good until I got divorced and the weight came back with a vengeance. I have since remarried and decided (several times) that I need to lose weight! I would do fabulous for atleast two weeks and fall off of the wagon again. Soooooo here I am!

A few weeks ago I decided that I was going to research weight loss surgeries. When Carnie Wilson, Al Roker and Randy Jackson had their bypasses done I thought they looked great but I felt it was a really drastic move. But now I have found Lap-Band! I looked up alot of information and have decided that would work for me and I am totally ready for the sacrifice. I've eaten enough my first 34 years to last me a lifetime. I just want to feel better physically and mentally!