3 Months out....

Jan 13, 2012

I am just about 3 months and 1 week out from when I had my surgery and I cannot believe the difference in my life.
I am down 10 inches in just my stomach.  I have gone from a size 24/26 to an 18, and not just any 18, I mean wearing jeans straight from the dryer 18.  I know that soon enough I will be further down in sizes.

I can sit in booths with out fear.
I can cross my legs.
I no longer feel like the fat girl when I am out with my friends.
I can see my collar bone.
I can work all day and come home and play with my daughter.
My lists of "I can'ts" shrinks while my list of "I can's" continues to grow.

I am so thankful for this surgery.  I am so thankful for showing my daughter that being healthy is very important.  I am thankful that I am finally being a role model to help her grow to be a successful confident woman.

In three months I say goodbye to 60 lbs of misery, pain, and regret.
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Over a Week Out....

Oct 25, 2011

I had my one week evaluation yesterday, and everything is looking great, externally.  I kind of wish they did an ultra sound or something to make sure everything is okay on the inside.

I am ahead of the curve at lost 13.5 lbs by yesterday and today I am down another pound.  The CNA stated that on average people lose about 30 lbs their first month, I of course cannot be average and I am shooting for 35 lbs :)

Today I am a bit more tired than normal and I think it is because I had to drive over an hour to see the doctors, and I went shopping and walking around for an hour yesterday.  I am a little frustrated at my lack of energy, but I am sure it is because I am averaging  only 400 calories a day.

I have been approved for a Soft Diet, and while I was so excited for this, I have never felt so lost on what to eat.  Last night I had 1 oz of sandwich  meat and two bites of small broccoli covered in cheese from Green Giant steam-ables.  I am not sure what to eat from there.  I felt comfortable on my Pureed diet, as long as it can be poured out of a cup I was good.  Now I just need to make sure it is moist..... umm okay......  I guess I will know if I eat something that I am not ready for. 

I am still struggling on feeling full.  I got confirmation that I practically cannot stretch my stomach out right now, and since I have never felt that over full sensation everyone talks about, I wonder if I am eating enough.  Don't get me  wrong it isn't like I am hungry, I just don't know if I should eat the entire packet of Cream of Wheat or not.  Should I limit myself, or should I keep eating until I am "full."  I guess I will figure it out.

In less than two days I am suppose to go back to work.  I am not sure if I will have the energy.  Thank goodness in my job if I need to sit I can.  My bosses and coworkers are very supportive so I am not worried about that, I just know I am going to be exhausted.  Also, how will I get my liquid and food in?  I need to start planning my meals ahead of time and plugging them in to make sure I am getting what I am suppose to get.  This stresses me out.

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I thought I wasn't going to get hungry....

Oct 22, 2011

So Day 5 post op and I have to say I know when I need to stop drinking because I become starving.  Not like ohh I can eat, but ohh my goodness I need food!!!!  I am worried because I am not sure if this is normal or not.  I thought I wouldn't be hungry and that is the whole reason to have this surgery.   Now I still get full after a big sip of drink, I am satisfied after 1/2c of food, and I only eat 3 to 4 hours apart with no snacking, so I am guessing this is normal for my body.

Here comes the test of seeing if I have will power to make sure that I get my liquids in, the proper protein in, and stay away from most everything else.  I am ready for soft foods, but I am loving the effects of the pureed diet.  Depending on the mood of my electric scale I am anywhere from 14 to 18 lbs down this first week.  That is MIND BLOWING  
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3 days post-op.

Oct 19, 2011

Physically I am feeling fantastic.  I am a little tired but I was able to stay awake from 10:30am until now which is 7 pm.  I had half a dose of pain meds at 7:30 am and another full dose at 6 pm.  I could not expect better!

Mentally this is harder in some areas then I thought it would be.   It is a struggle mentally to think about the different things I will never eat again.  Some days I am okay with this, and then other moments I am not.  I am guessing this is normal. 

I am already 7 lbs down so that is pretty awesome.  I know this is a life change and I need to eat to survive and not to enjoy.  There are other things in life worth living for other than food.  I just need to get into that mindset.

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Today is the Day!

Oct 16, 2011

I could not be more excited. Today is the day that I go in for surgery!  I leave in about 45 min. to get to the hospital, surgery is set for 1:30!!  I pray for my surgeon and hope he is having a great day!

Of course I am anxious and excited and just ready to get this over with.  I am fearful that I will not be able to have self control and this will be an expensive waste, but I truly hope not!
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8 days until......

Oct 09, 2011

And the anxiety kicks in.  I am sure that  it is because I have one week left with my kiddos at school, that I have a lot of lose ends that need to be finished before next Monday.   I am really having to breath through my day.  I am not worried about death, or leaving family behind.  I know where I am going, and I have had the best conversations I can with each of my family members.  It's all the little things that in a week I know will not matter, but it's hard to tell my anxiety that.
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10 days until....

Oct 07, 2011

I am on the count down!!!    I had my final appointment with my surgeon yesterday, and I cannot wait!  I love my surgeon, and it is a great feeling that I completely trust this guy to do the best for me and my life.

My story,

I was a very typical child that was healthy and active in sports.  I never carried weight and didn't have to really think about what was I was eating.    My parents divorced when I was 8, and that is when the battle with weight began for me.  I was not as active as I was previously.  My mother worked 80+ hours a week to make our monthly bills, barely.  My dad was stationed in a different state.  Looking back it really affected me and put me on a path that I am not too thrilled about. 
As I entered Middle school I became  self conscious and found comfort in food as many did during that time.

  When I became a Junior in High School I joined the Winter/Color Guard and the weight fell right off.  I went off to college feeling great, but the freshman 15 hit me,as well as,being poor and eating un healthy.  I didn't join a sport or do anything too active, and I drank way too much.  As I left college I was a thick curvy girl not to bad though.  I left my skinniest size of a 10 and went to a 14.  I still felt great!

After college, I hit a bit of a funky.  I was trying to figure out who I was, andI got caught up with a guy who wasn't the best.  With in a two year relationship I gained about 100 lbs, and became pregnant.  It was rough, but I got a wonderful daughter out of the relationship and I moved on.

I worked hard and lost about 80 lbs through diet and exercise.  I worked with a personal trainer 3 times a week, and worked out over an hour a day.  I put in more than two hours on diet and food prep.  It was unrealistic for me to expect to keep up that kind of a schedule being a single parent.  When I stopped losing weight after the 80, and hit a plateau, I kind of gave up.  Slowly the weight crept back on plus more in less than 5 years.

I started a new job, which is high stress which didn't help with the weight gain.  The good thing about my new job is it gave me a friend who I went with to the seminar about Gastric Bypass.  I watched her journey and surgery in late July, and I cannot wait to go through the healthy transformation.

I am more than ready to be healthy and to be a good role model for my daughter. 
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KY
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RNY
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10/17/2011
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Jul 31, 2011
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