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3 Months out....
Jan 13, 2012
I am down 10 inches in just my stomach. I have gone from a size 24/26 to an 18, and not just any 18, I mean wearing jeans straight from the dryer 18. I know that soon enough I will be further down in sizes.
I can sit in booths with out fear.
I can cross my legs.
I no longer feel like the fat girl when I am out with my friends.
I can see my collar bone.
I can work all day and come home and play with my daughter.
My lists of "I can'ts" shrinks while my list of "I can's" continues to grow.
I am so thankful for this surgery. I am so thankful for showing my daughter that being healthy is very important. I am thankful that I am finally being a role model to help her grow to be a successful confident woman.
In three months I say goodbye to 60 lbs of misery, pain, and regret.
Over a Week Out....
Oct 25, 2011
I am ahead of the curve at lost 13.5 lbs by yesterday and today I am down another pound. The CNA stated that on average people lose about 30 lbs their first month, I of course cannot be average and I am shooting for 35 lbs :)
Today I am a bit more tired than normal and I think it is because I had to drive over an hour to see the doctors, and I went shopping and walking around for an hour yesterday. I am a little frustrated at my lack of energy, but I am sure it is because I am averaging only 400 calories a day.
I have been approved for a Soft Diet, and while I was so excited for this, I have never felt so lost on what to eat. Last night I had 1 oz of sandwich meat and two bites of small broccoli covered in cheese from Green Giant steam-ables. I am not sure what to eat from there. I felt comfortable on my Pureed diet, as long as it can be poured out of a cup I was good. Now I just need to make sure it is moist..... umm okay...... I guess I will know if I eat something that I am not ready for.
I am still struggling on feeling full. I got confirmation that I practically cannot stretch my stomach out right now, and since I have never felt that over full sensation everyone talks about, I wonder if I am eating enough. Don't get me wrong it isn't like I am hungry, I just don't know if I should eat the entire packet of Cream of Wheat or not. Should I limit myself, or should I keep eating until I am "full." I guess I will figure it out.
In less than two days I am suppose to go back to work. I am not sure if I will have the energy. Thank goodness in my job if I need to sit I can. My bosses and coworkers are very supportive so I am not worried about that, I just know I am going to be exhausted. Also, how will I get my liquid and food in? I need to start planning my meals ahead of time and plugging them in to make sure I am getting what I am suppose to get. This stresses me out.
I thought I wasn't going to get hungry....
Oct 22, 2011
Here comes the test of seeing if I have will power to make sure that I get my liquids in, the proper protein in, and stay away from most everything else. I am ready for soft foods, but I am loving the effects of the pureed diet. Depending on the mood of my electric scale I am anywhere from 14 to 18 lbs down this first week. That is MIND BLOWING
3 days post-op.
Oct 19, 2011
Physically I am feeling fantastic. I am a little tired but I was able to stay awake from 10:30am until now which is 7 pm. I had half a dose of pain meds at 7:30 am and another full dose at 6 pm. I could not expect better!
Mentally this is harder in some areas then I thought it would be. It is a struggle mentally to think about the different things I will never eat again. Some days I am okay with this, and then other moments I am not. I am guessing this is normal.
I am already 7 lbs down so that is pretty awesome. I know this is a life change and I need to eat to survive and not to enjoy. There are other things in life worth living for other than food. I just need to get into that mindset.
Today is the Day!
Oct 16, 2011
Of course I am anxious and excited and just ready to get this over with. I am fearful that I will not be able to have self control and this will be an expensive waste, but I truly hope not!
8 days until......
Oct 09, 2011
10 days until....
Oct 07, 2011
My story,
I was a very typical child that was healthy and active in sports. I never carried weight and didn't have to really think about what was I was eating. My parents divorced when I was 8, and that is when the battle with weight began for me. I was not as active as I was previously. My mother worked 80+ hours a week to make our monthly bills, barely. My dad was stationed in a different state. Looking back it really affected me and put me on a path that I am not too thrilled about.
As I entered Middle school I became self conscious and found comfort in food as many did during that time.
When I became a Junior in High School I joined the Winter/Color Guard and the weight fell right off. I went off to college feeling great, but the freshman 15 hit me,as well as,being poor and eating un healthy. I didn't join a sport or do anything too active, and I drank way too much. As I left college I was a thick curvy girl not to bad though. I left my skinniest size of a 10 and went to a 14. I still felt great!
After college, I hit a bit of a funky. I was trying to figure out who I was, andI got caught up with a guy who wasn't the best. With in a two year relationship I gained about 100 lbs, and became pregnant. It was rough, but I got a wonderful daughter out of the relationship and I moved on.
I worked hard and lost about 80 lbs through diet and exercise. I worked with a personal trainer 3 times a week, and worked out over an hour a day. I put in more than two hours on diet and food prep. It was unrealistic for me to expect to keep up that kind of a schedule being a single parent. When I stopped losing weight after the 80, and hit a plateau, I kind of gave up. Slowly the weight crept back on plus more in less than 5 years.
I started a new job, which is high stress which didn't help with the weight gain. The good thing about my new job is it gave me a friend who I went with to the seminar about Gastric Bypass. I watched her journey and surgery in late July, and I cannot wait to go through the healthy transformation.
I am more than ready to be healthy and to be a good role model for my daughter.