Ckingslim
Hi my name is Connie, I am 48 years young and have been struggling with weight issues for 30 of my 48 years. I've spent many years building a protective barrier around myself to fight off unwanted advances from male figures in my life. As a child I was physically and sexually abused by every male figure that came into my life, so I quickly adapted by packing on the pounds. My philosphy was they wouldn't bug me if I was fat and ugly...ya know what, it worked! But looking back on things I wouldn't recommend this, it's taken me many years to forgive/forget and move on from those days in my life and now that I have, it's been nothing but a struggle trying to lose the excess weight.
Doreen Virtue writes a wonderful book on this topic, "Losing the Pounds of Pain" and summerizes it very well in the following quote; "The first part of healing occurs in the mind. The second part of healing occurs in the heart. The third and final part of healing occurs in the stomach". You could say I'm now on the third and final part of my healing process.
I've tried every diet plan under the sun, both healthy and not so healthy to no avail. I love the Weight Watchers program and have been on it for the past 3 years, only to lose and gain the same 15 pounds more times then I can count. WLS is something that I've been considering for about 5 years and just this summer had my Ahh Ha moment. I realized life was apssing me by, I was no longer able to do the things that my husband and I both enjoyed doing together such as horse back riding, skiing, hiking, etc. I desparately wanted to be able to live, I mean really live again. No more sitting on the side lines watch life pass my by. I'm not getting younger and everything I've tried, has failed. So WLS was my best option.
I took to researching the various WLS options, reading every book I could get my hands on and truly becoming an informed patient. After about 6 months of research, pre-op testing and such, my surgery date was scheduled fro 12/16/08. I'm looking forward to the changes 2009 will bring to my life. Cheers to living life again!
