Laura T.

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I got home yesterday.
I am hurting pretty bad (left rib) and inner pain--feels like my newly cut free tummy is rolling around trying to find a new home. LOL

Pain meds are helping...I'm down to the Tylenol off the narcotics :) That is good news.
I did manage to get out of bed today by myself (no hard task since our bed is like 3 1/2 feet from floor to mattress top).
I ate a little cream of wheat today with splenda--and country crock...two tiny teaspoons did the trick. First time I had any rumblings of hunger--I think it was probably gas anyway LOL.
I am worried about liquid intake a little. I love straws--hubby took them away. I hate sipping. I do not feel like I am getting enough. Hard to measure.
Also--I am continuing to drink 2-3 ounces of liquid protein to help keep the protein up each day.
PostOp visit is Wed to remove staples.

And away we gooooooooooooo.............

Well, today is rainy and cold. I dare not venture out lest I get a cold or a virus and get sick--having to do this all over again is unfathomable!

I am catching up on some reading--I need to be working in my "junk" room--but nowhere to put all my junk--so why bother. LOL

I'm being pretty lazy in the rainy cold atmosphere. I'm wrapped in my sweatpants, long nightdress and warm fuzzy socks.

I am thinking about Tuesday--the big day. I am not worried, I do struggle with feeling like "I've failed" because I've had to resort to surgery to beat this thing. I am an overachiever and that bites for me--to fail. But I believe it is the right choice. I have hope for a healthier future--less (or no???) leg pains, feet pains, back pains, joints aching from carrying so much weight... From burning feet (diabetes), from tingling hands and legs for low circulation... the list goes on.

I am ready to be free of dressing in tents, stretch pants, ugly shoes (because my feet are too fat for cute ones)...I want BOOTS! My calves are too fat for any that I do find to fit my feet... I love boots. I want to be able to look down and see the ground without having to hold my belly in. I want to NOT be able to pick up my belly and lay it on a counter LOL--I've often pictured just getting a vacuum cleaner and sucking all that fat out--wouldn't life be much more simpler if that were possible? LOL

I look forward to going on cruises and not feel like the beached whale and being able to go on excursions that have the word "hike" in it...I want to see some of the ruins and temples in South America/Mexico that I've missed before because I was so out of shape I couldn't have made it. And I look forward to not "not" enjoying an excursion because it was more strenuous than they had indicated. I am looking forward to having a better sex drive--mine drove off several years ago--I have the porch light on--waiting for it's return (as is hubby LOL)... I am looking forward to--(pardon my picturesque speech) wiping my butt with ease--and not feeling like I have to reach way over to Kentucky to get to it. Ha!
I look forward to not sweating under folds of fat--worst stink there is in the sweat department... I look forward to being free from this container that some how turned "wide load" when I wasn't looking. I'm ready for the slimmer, sleeker version of me... the one that matches my mind...I never think of myself as overweight until I can't do something, I put on clothes or I try to do something I used to do--but can no longer (well, and the mirror) LOL.

I dunno, I guess I've vented enough today. Time is ticking down--which reminds me--Dexter tonight! :)

Adios for now!