Connie1959

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Hi Everyone,
I'm one week post op and feeling much better today. However, before I go into that let me give you some history.

I grew up in CT in the town I live in today. I was a chunky child from birth 8 lbs 12oz and I was a cesarean baby so I never had to push my way into this world! LOL lack of exercise from the get go. Chunky kid most of my life but always active. I have two older brothers so I had to keep up with them. We had a swimming pool and you couldn't get me out of it. I think that kept me from becoming obese. I remember my Mom would catch me pigging out on cookies after school and ask me " What, are you making love to these cookies?" At the time, I had no idea what she meant. Now I think it was a bizarre saying for a 10 year old. I remember they wouldn't let me have a Barbie doll. They said it was too grown up for me and the image was unrealistic. Maybe I should have had one, lol. Through high school, I was around 150 so I was normal in the weight aspect, but I grew up in the 70s and found my addictions in the drug culture of the day. When I finally grew out of that, I had an 8-year-old daughter I was raising on my own at 28 and I found God. I became born again, but I never conquered my addiction tendencies. I had left drugs and turned to food. I gained 100 lbs. It was the legal and mildly acceptable addiction while attending church. I have since learned it is a sin. The sin of gluttony. When my daughter started high school, I went to Weight Watchers and lost those 100 lbs only to regain it again in 2 years. When my daughter went to college, I stated the Atkins diet and lost those 100lbs again. This is when I met my soon to be husband and we both lost about 20 lbs for the wedding. We looked marvelous darling! lol We went on a cruise for our honeymoon, BIG MISTAKE! We started eating, because of course, the wedding pictures were taken and we could finally EAT! The problem is we haven't STOPPED eating since. Therefore, I gained my 100 back plus another 21 lbs on top of that putting my highest weight to 271. 

I had a girlfriend who had gastric bypass and looked awesome. She kept trying to talk me into getting it but I kept putting her off saying I am going to do it on my own. Well 2 years later, 500 dollars back in Weight Watchers and a whole lot older than before, I just couldn't seem to do it this time. Not only that, why do I keep putting it back on after all that hard work losing it. That's when I decided if I do lose it again, I need help to keep it off. So 2 years later, I went to Dr. Barba's seminar. I had put my name in three different times to go to the seminar but kept chickening out thinking, I can do this on my own. Well I came to realize I couldn't, and I shouldn't feel ashamed about that. Not only that, now I'm getting really concerned for my health, I've developed, High Blood Pressure, Asthma, Depression, Acid Reflux, and Sleep Apnea. Now there's a list of obesity related diseases. The only one I'm missing is diabetes and that's the one that scares the heck out of me because my mother died when she was 55 from it. So, it's right around the corner if I keep on this same path.

I started the seminar in October and went to all the doctor appts. and finally had surgery on Feb 18th. I'm one week post op and can't wait to start mushy foods. One more week, 3/4 of the way there, keep praying and relying on God and I keep talking to the wonderful people on this site. Thank you all, you've been a godsend.

God Bless You All
Connie