Hello all, I’m sorry if this is a little all over the place. It seems like I have been over weight all my life. I was the big kid in grade school. I had to have my uniforms adjusted to fit. In high school I bought men’s jeans because they were the only ones that fit. I was active still I rode horses tried out for basketball, even in college. It seems like yesterday but more like the last couple of years I had control of my weight. Well lets be honest my weight has always had control of me. But I always said I was the healthiest fat person I know. I didn’t have High BP, no diabetes, Cholesterol was good. But I hadn’t stepped on a scale in years. Well I knew I needed to do something about my weight I wasn’t living my life I was just here. My mom and I joined CFF (California Family Fitness). We went 3 times a week to the aqua size classes since I was so heavy figured this would be a great start. Mom and I then got a personal trainer I was going 4 or 5 days a week eating healthy I lost nothing no weight not an inch. Our personal trainer didn’t understand thought I wasn’t following his guidelines that I wasn’t working out. I want to define my life not have my weight define me. People always tell me I don’t see you as a fat person. I remember I went on vacation with a friend to
Seattle, Wa . He wanted to go parasailing. He was so excited that they did tandem parasailing but there was a weight limit. I was crushed I felt so bad that I was over the weight limit by myself. He never said anything bad just that he couldn’t believe it. I convinced him I was and that he should go that I would ride in the boat and watch from the water. We had a great time anyways but I was heart broken. I can still remember the first airplane ride when the stewardess asked me if I wanted a seat belt extender. One time before that one had walked up to me and slide it slyly into my hand and smiled. What a horrible feeling to have to have that. I have done the online dating thing which in self is scary. When I was first starting out I would be like I’m not a thin person ( who was I kidding I had never been a thin person ) and who knew there were so many titles for a plus size lady BBW, SBBW, Curvy, Top heavy, bottom heavy, pear shaped. All which I have had a guy ask me if I fit into? I have now gotten real honest and straight forward. I mean let’s be honest here when a guy ask online what I look like I give him the height eyes hair color then I know what’s coming next and I always tell them I’m fat. No one has believed me like I would lie about that. Then there is the I like big girls come one who really likes that (no hate mail Please) there’s nothing sexy about this many rolls. Unless you want shade in the summer and heat in the winter. I feel like I’m standing on the edge of my life, looking in. I have my orientation on Nov. 20th. I’m so excited. I just hope that I can have the VSG done. If you have read this Thank you. If you have skimmed this I understand. One of my goals is to help adults and parents understand that being over weight as a child is not healthy. Please feel free to share any comments.
