cubanita783
SPRING HAS SPRUNG
Apr 09, 2009
Well It is Spring and I feel a little better but the rain is not helping. I cannot wait until the warm weather is here. My goal is to spend as much time possible outside and moving around. I am really bad with the excersise routine thing so I think that if I go outside more and walk, play with my kids, swim, play sports plant a garden ill be excersising but not knowing it and it will be fun. I am also planning on doing the 5 day Pouch test beggining this monday and I think that part of it will be blogging everyday maybe even more than once just to keep myself on track. i have read many other posts from others who have tried it and even though some said it was difficult it definately put them back on track. I need to be back on track because I am only a year out and this is a lifetime commitment and I think that the pouch test will help me to get back to where I need to be. So plan to hear from me everyday next week I hope it works... Wish me luck, I know Ill need it but hopefully I will be able to get to day 6 and be a new person on the other side back on track and using my pouch the tool my surgeon gave me the right way.
AMANDA
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AMANDA
Need to Make a Commitment to Myself
Mar 12, 2009
I still have not gotten my problem under control. However now I know what it is. HEAD HUNGER. I know that I am not really hungry and I know that I have had enough for the day to keep me healthy. I just get a sensation of hunger and then I give in and when I do I regret it after. Either I make myself sick or I stop midway through whatever Im eating and realize that I am already full because I had already eaten earlier in the day. This happens mostly at night and when Im stressed. I need to find new ways to distract myself and get my mind off of food. I do agree that this is the time which is the hardest. In the beggining it was so easy I never got hungry I could go days without eating if I didnt want to. (I did not do that by the way.) Now I do get hungry and I need to learn how to distinguish head hunger from real hunger. Food has always been a focal point in my life. I need to develop other interests and hobbies to keep my mind occupied. Also I need to stay away from food that does not have protein. I will try everything I can and hopefully I will be in a much better place mentally, emotionally and physically for my next post. Any suggestions or words of encouragement are greatly appreciated. THANKS TO ALL!! 
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WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME??
Feb 26, 2009
I am feeling so discouraged and mad at myself right now. I cannot stop eating badly at night. I do so great all day. Then when Iam relaxing at home in bed getting ready for bed something takes over me and I dont care anymore and I go raid the kitchen. I tell myself all day I will do good and I do until like I said its almost time for me to go to bed. Not onlyh am I eating things that are not good for me but I sam doing it at the worst time of the day right before bed. I never want to be the way I was before but if I cannot stop this habit now I know I am doomed. However I have been excersising more which is good. But I am not losing anymore weight and thats probably due to may problem. Please if anyone has any suggestions or advice or things theyve tried please let me know. TILL NEXT TIME!!
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ITS MY BIRTHDAY TODAY!!
Jan 14, 2009
Hey Everyone today is my birthday and I feel better today at 26 than when I turned 18, or 21. Its crazy las year on my birthday I was two weeks post surgery and trying just to adjust to eating again. Today I feel great. I mean I know I ve been struggling with the weight loss slowing down and the sugar cravings especially when sugar does not make me sick. But last year on my birthday I didn't have as much energy I feel like I got younger today instead of older. I am excersising more now and this has moved the scale in the right direction it is very slow and is a very small amount but it is working. Also the excersise that I was always to tired or to busy to do before leaves me feeling more energized and more enthusiastic. I hope that by my birthday next year I will have reached my goal of being 150 lbs and that I feel as good if not better than I do now. I know my struggles are going to be with sugar mainly CHOCOLATE but like my Doctor told me in the beggining this surgery is a tool and you have to learn to use it well. So even though this surgery does not keep me away from sugar it keeps me from eating too much now I just have to try to stay away from the sugar and CHOCOLATE using good old willpower. I know I can do it. Well anyways HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!!!!!!!!!
AMANDA
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AMANDA
HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!!!!
Jan 02, 2009
Hello Everyone HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!!!
I am feeling much better than the last time I posted. We have begun the new year and with every new year comes nerw begginings. I promised myself that this year I will concentrate on taking care of myself and not trying to sabotage all the hard work Ive already accomplished. I was in a bad rut for a while which began when I found out I could eat sugar. That was the biggest mistake I ever made. But Now I have to keep going and not look back. Everytime I walk by BAD FOOD which is always everywhere I just tell myself nothing tastes better than being healthy and fitting into my clothes. I dont want to go back to wearing a tent as a Tshirt. I hope that I can stick to my guns and not stray. However I know everyone makes mistakes from time to time and one of my problems is that I dwell too much on things. Its like a cycle I mess up then Im mad at myself cause I messed up then I get depressed or upset and that triggers my craving for BAD FOOD. I have to learn different ways to cope with my stress and I have to be able to forgive myself for minor mistakes and move on. Well anyways HAPPY NEW YEAR TO ALL. And I wish everyone the best of luck for 2009. 2008 was a great year for me its the year I had my surgery and I will never forget it I just hope 2009 turns out to be just as GREAT!!!!!!
AMANDA '2009'
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I am feeling much better than the last time I posted. We have begun the new year and with every new year comes nerw begginings. I promised myself that this year I will concentrate on taking care of myself and not trying to sabotage all the hard work Ive already accomplished. I was in a bad rut for a while which began when I found out I could eat sugar. That was the biggest mistake I ever made. But Now I have to keep going and not look back. Everytime I walk by BAD FOOD which is always everywhere I just tell myself nothing tastes better than being healthy and fitting into my clothes. I dont want to go back to wearing a tent as a Tshirt. I hope that I can stick to my guns and not stray. However I know everyone makes mistakes from time to time and one of my problems is that I dwell too much on things. Its like a cycle I mess up then Im mad at myself cause I messed up then I get depressed or upset and that triggers my craving for BAD FOOD. I have to learn different ways to cope with my stress and I have to be able to forgive myself for minor mistakes and move on. Well anyways HAPPY NEW YEAR TO ALL. And I wish everyone the best of luck for 2009. 2008 was a great year for me its the year I had my surgery and I will never forget it I just hope 2009 turns out to be just as GREAT!!!!!!
AMANDA '2009'
HOLIDAYS ARE SO HARD
Dec 24, 2008
Well I got through Thanksgiving ok. But Christmas has been a little harder. I am eating too much sweets and unhealthy food. In my defense its everywhere. At work, friends & families houses and at home. I never noticed before how much a part of the holidays it was to eat junk food. I also cannot stop snacking at night. I do good all day and then when Im realxing in front of the tv I get cravings for a snack and I know Im not hungry. I keep givin in to those urges and Im scared because if I had this surgery just to get back to where I was before then thats going to be very sad and depressing. However I have lost 114 lbs in total but if I keep going the way I am now Im just sabotaging myself and killing all my progress. Not to mention the fact that I am not losing weight and thats because Im eating all the wrong things and not excersising. I need to wake up and smell the coffee if I want to make it to my goal weight. I am only 22 lbs away now. I need to be more determined. Also my year anniversary is coming up 1/28/09 it will have been exactly one year since I had my surgery.
AMANDA
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AMANDA
WHAT IS GOIN ON HERE
Aug 14, 2008
I have not lost any weight in about 3 weeks. YIKES!! is that normal. I was so happy when I reached my first goal to be under 200lbs but now it seems like I have stopped at 195 and am not going anywhere. Pleasehelp me. Let me know if any of you is going through the same thing. I would appreciate any advise I can get on this matter.
Reached First Goal!!!!!!!!1
Jul 25, 2008
Hello Every one I am so exceited I have reached my first goal, Which is to weigh under 200 lbs. I have not weighed less than 200 since I was Junior in Highschool. I am so Happy. I am so proud of myself. it was not easy but I made it. Hopefully I can acheive all of my goals some day. For now I am happy being under 200. 150 here I come!! I still am having a hard time with the snacking at night. Maybe that can be one of my new goals is to stop that because I dont want to undo all of what Ive gone through to get here. But anyways I am down to 195, my doctors says I ve lost 68% of my excess weight thats awesome and only in six months. I am so happy I had this operation and if I had to start over I would do it again in a hearbeat.
AMANDA
I AM AT 200!
Jul 05, 2008
I have reached 200!!. I cant wait until I lose one more pound. I cannot wait. I will reach my first goal once I lose one more pound I will be under 200. I still have a probelm though I cannot stop snacking at night. I dont know why but I get cravings that I cant resist at night. Please if anyone has some tricks to resist eating at night let me know ASAP. Well till next time. Hopefully I will have reached my goal of under 200 by then.
Getting Smaller/ Slowing Down and Eating More
Jun 26, 2008
Well I am alot smaller than when I began this journey I now weigh 203 pounds. I am so close to my goal of being under 200 I can almost taste it. But I feel like my weight loss has slowed down so drastically that I weigh myself constanly and I get so mad when the numbers dont change. I want to be under 200 pounds so badly. I have not weighed under 200 since I was a teenager. However I have realized that my problemmay be that I am eating more and not all healthy choices I may add. I do not get sick when I eat sugar so that kinda sucks because if I want a piece of cake I can have it an anhour later I can have another. I just have to keep myself away from junk food but its really hard. I was a junk food junkie before and now that I know it doesnt make me sick its hard to stay away. i need to work on my will power. I dont want to have gone through this surgery for nothing and at the moment I may be sabotaging myself. I hope that next time I put up another posting I am doing better and I have reached my goal of being under 200 lbs. Also a little more excersisi on my part would not hurt. Oh well, let me know if you guys have any ideas to curb the cravings for junk food God knos I need all the suggestions I can get.
Until Next time!
Until Next time!
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