dacia4u
01/22/2007
Ok I know that I had my Surgery on the 4th of December, but I will like to go back to those days. Ok, I will like to tell u about how I finally made my decision to have surgery. About a year ago, I saw an old friend of mine from school. And I noticed that she had lost some weight. I of course i wanted to know her secret and she had told me that she had WLS. I was curious about and started to ask her ?s about it. She told me that she had no complications at all, and everything was goin fine. That then put the idea in my head about the surgery and then I never fell through on it. Then i saw her around may of '06 and she looked awesome. Then i knew that I had to do something about my apperance. I had been dieting and dieting all this time and I saw little to no difference(but me gaining more weight). So I got the information from her and I called.
My Family was not supportive at first because they felt that I could lose the weight on my own.(I have no Will POWER OK) So I knew that I needed a tool to help me. So I had to go a meeting before I met with anyone. I did in June, and in July I had my appointment with the Nurse Pract. She was so nice and answered all of my ?s. So she submitted my paperwork, and by Sept I was approved for my surgery. My orginal date of Nov. 17(I think) But I couldnt do that date because I was goin on a cruise on Thanksgiving. So they scheduled me for the December 5th.
Ok the day of surgery, Nothing to really talk about I slept the whole day. That evening I walked alittle. The second day I was able to use the bathroom on my own and I walked more and was able to drink water and eat ice, the pain was fine b.c i chose to have the epiderm. Everything was good at my room b.c I was the only one there until i was moved up stairs. I hated the room. I had to share a room with another lady. But I woulda been ok if it was someone who had the same surgery as me. It was uncomfortable to room with someone who was eating regular food. It was bad enough that I was trying adjust with Instant Breakfast shakes, but to smell real food while u drink. It was so much fun :( The nurses too long to come to your aid, i think they where short staffed. The next day I had to have that test done. YOu know the one that has to see if you have leaks. Well i didnt realize that I was phobic about big machines over me that was the most uncomfortable experience ever. I dont mean to be so negative but I just have to vent it out. So I was waiting for someone to take me back up to my room. At this time, my epiderm was out and the nurse said she wasnt goin to give me any pain meds unitl after I come back from testing. So Im just a waiting, waiting, waiting, well its now 1 hr passed I sitting here in this iron wheelchair with no cushion a wimpy sheet, achy my butt off. I could take it no more. So I started to walk down the hallway, and 2 nurse saw me and they helped me out. I was so happy b.c it was hard for me to walk. At this time I knew that i had to go home TODAY. So I did.
Now, at home, I slept on the sofa for 1 week. At home I didnt realize how much food plays a part in our lives. It was hard seeing my step children, and my kids and husband eat pizza, chips, popcorn around me. It was very depressing. I realized that I couldnt drink Skim Milk that it was bloating me up too much. So I had to buy Lactose Free milk. I got so tired of drinking the protien shakes, I started to gag. Well at my 2 week check-up I had lost 20 pounds. I was so happy. But when i looked in the mirror I couldnt see where i had lost any weight. So he added to my diet overcooked veggies and fruit in a can.(OH so much fun) As the weeks went by I didnt realize how hard it was goin to be. I was in the house all the time b.c I didnt want to go nowhere. I couldnt go out to eat with family. I just look like a depressed soul. At my 5 week Joined the YMCA and that has been good. I try to work out 4 days out of week and the days that I dont go I work out at home. Well since my 2 week check up I now weigh 214.00 I dont go back to the Doctors will 2-28. The nurse said she has a good feeling that I will be under 200. Lets hope she is right.
01-23-2007
Ok I know I am back so soon, But I am just wondering if any one will like to be my friend please feel free to add me. I am looking for support BIG time. Some days I think to my self why did i do this. I know it feels good to try on clothes that you couldnt fit into months ago, and people telling you how good u look but, when i see myself i still see this fat girl. Has anyone felt this way?
