danichubs
The Beginning 7/24/11
Jul 24, 2011
Hello,First of I want to thank you for taking the time to read my post. I would like to introduce myself, I am 21 years old currently 5'3 in height and 250lbs. Above all I am miserable in this fat prison of a body, and I decided that after all of my attempts, starting from age 11, I have finally decided to do what is best for myself...gastric bypass.
Throughout my attempts I have encountered many health issues. Atkins diet caused me gastric bacteria problems, Xenical made me afraid to leave the house or to be away from a bathroom, weightwatchers was a waste of money, meridia gave me extreme heart palpitations, routine diet and exercise was yoyo'ing my weight all the time. On meridia I lost alot of weight, about 45-50 lbs. That medication is now recalled due to heart attacks. Once I was off it, I could not maintain a good diet and gained all of my weight back plus more.
I hate shopping, I dread going out to eat, I hate taking showers, I am ashamed of what I've become. But despite the bad feelingsof myself, I know there is still a chance. I don't view gastric bypass as the answer, I see it as an oppurtunity to have my own personal 'coach' to guide me to feel full, to keep me away from the sweets and sodas. I see it as a mentor to learn how to eat properly without overdoing so much. I am taking gastric bypass as something to teach my mind how to eat, and to make me understand what it is to be full.
I have seen my mother, my uncle and my cousin have this procedure done. I know the benefits, the risks, the deals, the downfalls. I understand it all. I have a wonderful boyfriend of four years that has seen me struggle with my weight for a long time now, although he believes I can lose weight without doing this surgery, I do not think so. But I would like for those who think that this is a cheap way to get thin, a 'quick fix', to know that it is NOT. It's alot of work, alot of time, and alot of risk. If you dont know what its like to walk in another shoes, dont judge.
I have my psychiatric evaluation next week. Ill be taking more pictures of myself and posting them. I just hope all falls through for me, and good luck to the rest of you on here.
Thanks
