dannyanddelaney
Well - here it goes.....I am sure I am like many of you that just can't seem to get control of myself when it comes to food. I am the person who loves loves loves food! I like it when I am happy, sad, scared and mostly stressed.
My childhood was the typical story of my poor mom raising 4 kids by herself. I still don't know how she did it. I was an athlete all my life. Played 3 sports and was most athletic in high school and went on to be captain of a NCAA Division I field hockey team. Needless to say - I had a great ass back in the day! My weight was always an issue though - I was always battling 5-10 pounds and I had a lot of pressure on me to be thin and fast. Needless to say...I wish I was worried about 10 lbs now!
After college I owned my own business for 10 years and steadily began to gain weight. I didn't have time to work out and I was always stressed about money. At 23 I was married with a mortgage and 2 car payments and student loans etc. I was sooooo worried all of the time. Once I had my son, who is now 11 I got back down to 198 and that was the lowest I have been in 10 years. I went through some years of fertility issues and then was blessed with my daughter who is now 6.
When she was 3 years old she was diagnosed with autism and my world crashed. How on earth was I going to protect this child from the world??? Sometimes I still have no answer to that question. Food was my escape. I gained 40 lbs in 3 months.
I have been thinking about surgery for the past 5 years but put it aside when I found out about my daughter. My life was all about therapy and doctor's appointments and at the time the meltdowns were 10x a day and I knew that there was no way that I could not pick her up for 6 weeks!
She is now 6 years old and the time has come for me to do something about my weight. I am now 255 lbs. I don't know how I got here but here I am.....
My surgery date is 9/28 and everyone and their mother has something to say about it. Ofcourse you always hear the "why can't you do it on your own" or "I thought that this was only for fat people on their death bed.." It is never ending. I have put those voices behind me and know that this is the best thing that I can do for me and for my children. Looking forward to my new journey.....
