Jan. 21, 2009 -First Blog

Jan 21, 2009

I suppose better late than never!

I am about 8 months into my RNY and never felt the urge to blog about it until now.  I think my apathy began with the method in which I became a post RNYer.  I had lost 100 lbs. three/four times before having surgery and during the last massive weight loss I promised my mother I would have a surgery done if I couldn't keep it off.  Of course, in my mind I assumed the promise would ensure I wouldn't regain but, surprise, I gained it all back plus more.

Normally, I monomanically research any electronic purchase, vacations, what kind of toothpaste to use, ect.  However, I was so scared about the surgery and so depressed about needing to have it done that I blindly jumped off the cliff.  I found a surgeon online who seemed respectable and that was the extent of my preparation.  I asked the surgeon which surgery was best and made a date for the operation.  I truly did not want to have this surgery but I knew, in my heart, that it was my only chance....so here I am.

Only this past month have I been happy to be an RNYer.  I experienced a strange love/hate relationship with my operation in the beginning and spent an enormous amount of time during the first few months post-surgery regretting having had it done.  I suppose the purpose of this post is to acknowledge the realization that I now feel truly happy.

Positive Changes:  I have more confidence, more energy, am healthier, enjoy eating 'health' food, have a lot better sex life (my husband says it's like having an affair), and now have a fighting chance to one day become a little old lady.

Life is good!

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