darknluv25
All my life i have been what you call...on the plush side....well hell i'm a big gurl. I have to always had issues with food giving me comfort every since i could remember. As a matter of fact everything good or bad that happen to me from my childhood up until my adult life has been surrounded by food. It wasnt until i was diagnoised with Lupus that i decided that i was going to take control of my life. It's amazing what your kidney's and Liver failing will do to make you realize food is not the only thing worth living for.
Then god went and through this monkey in the game...and made food even more unappealing. He blessed me to be able to adopt this beautiful little girl. I think he did this because he knew i wasnt trying hard enough. Even though i was trying....i still cheated now and again. But now i have this little sweet face that depends on me....for everything. I've never felt so happy. This was the first time i didnt need food to validate me, nor and man. I had this little person who at time can make a sister want to call on him ( Jesus) but she was mine.
So i started this journey and people ask me all the time are you sure, are you scared, why are you doing this, you look OK like you are. Arent you scared your going to die...oh that's my favorite....As my Aunt Pearlie used to say, "Lordie Be if the good lord gonna take me, anit a thang i can do about," and so that's what i'm saying to them now. I know i never was doing this by myself on this journey i've been on for so many years.....I NEVER WALKED ALONE.....
