Darlene, i am thinking of you on this very night, and will be till all is well with you, im praying things will turn around for you, you have already been thru so much, you deserve healing now. there are so many people who are praying for you and your family, i hope god can let you stay in this world to be with your loved ones.they need you too. please dont give up on yourself, be strong lady, you are truly a special woman. be blessed.