DavidzAlwayz
Well its probably your typical story of someone that is overweight. I have struggled really as long as I can remember. I wasn't a real heavy kid but I was always heavier atleast I would say by 20-30 pounds compared to the other girls my age. I remember being in junior high and going to PE and being embarressed when it came time to "weigh" and do the whole body fat test. Mine was always alot higher than my friends and I just hated that. I can never really remember being able to just wear "anything". Things just fit my body not quite right. As I got older there were a few times when I slimmed down but it all really began when I had my first child. I got married at 18 and one year later was having my first child. Now mind you, I was no little petite thing when I got married. I weighed 176 at that time and by the time I had my daughter I weighed 226. I struggled with each pregnancy and afterwards I struggled even more. Well, here I am again. I now weigh 247 and I absolutely hate it. Now, someone could easily say, "Well, go on a diet, excercise!" I have tried believe me. Maybe not to the fullest extent. Maybe not compared to the person down at the sports park jogging or walking every morning. But I have tried. And after struggling for more than 15 years I am reaching out for help. I am choosing to have this upcoming surgery as a tool to help me. I know its gonna be tough, but I am willing to do it. I just know that I am never gonna get this weight off myself. I am weak, I am discouraged. And just like someone would say to a drug addict or alcoholic...go get the help. I am getting that help. I have seen my weight jump all over the scale. But in 15 years I have not seen it under 200. It has been up as high as 280 and I see myself headed in that direction again. It scares me to no end. I hate being this big. I feel uncomfortable in my own skin. My weight has affected my life and my relationships too long. I am getting older now and really starting to feel the weight where as 10-15 years ago I was able to deal with it. (Physically) I am tired all the time although I never have time to be tired. (If that makes sense) I am looking forward to being "normal". I pray that through this journey I will become the person that I have always dreamed of being. The wife, lover, friend, mother, playmate in the park, and so many other things. I want to be able to ENJOY life.
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