DebbyL
A New Day
May 02, 2007
5/2/07 Well I have beeen down to 179 this time last year and I'm up to 195. I am going for a fill tomorrow and will begin this journey again with a renewed attitude towards the band.
This is still a difficult head game and I will supress the demons once again. I am fommitting to my self here and now to blog once a week to help me stay accountable!!!! I am stronger than this!!
Let the games begin.
This is still a difficult head game and I will supress the demons once again. I am fommitting to my self here and now to blog once a week to help me stay accountable!!!! I am stronger than this!!
Let the games begin.
History
May 02, 2007
/15/05 A little over two weeks to go before surgery. I not nervous, nor overly excited. I feel: hunkering down to do some serious life style changes. I'm not sure what I'm scared of more suceeding or failing. I am at my all time high of 246. Not the most comfortable place to be for me.
4/19/05 Pre surgicial testing scheduled for Thursday. Anna seemed really nice. I'm so looking forward to this. I've been on the message boards, asking questions to the MD staff. I'm ready ROAR!
I am viewing the next 6 months as a marathon. Get it off. walk, run, hike anything but get this weight off. I will be good with what I'm eating because I am ready - I will not live like this anymore. I deserve more!
4/21/05 Pre surgical testing. I am at 242 now. (hey -4lbs. this week) Getting everything into prespective. I have made a commitment to myself to see Willo the Psych at Dr. Garber's office for the next few months. I want this to be a wonderful "getting healthy" process for me, my husband and the kids. Yet I know there will be feelings and things that I will need to figure out on my journey. Bought new sneakers and will break them in after dinner!
5/1/05 Holding at 242, tomorrow I do clear liquids and Tuesday is the surgery. I'm still in a bit of deniel yet, although I'm sure the clear liquids will put things into motion for me. I asked for a pedimeter for mother's day so I can track my walking. I want to do 200 miles before my birthday on July 4. My challenge to myself!
6/14/05 WOW! I was walking deligently and now mixing in some swiming for fun. Although with 2 kids it's a workout. It's been six weeks. A time for healing and learning how my body reacts to this. It hasn't been all roses, I encountered a few bumps in the beginning. The one thing that remains with me is something Wilo said to me, stop thinking like you are dieting, you're not dieting, you are living. I'm not a very good rule follower and she put this into a good prospective for me. I am trying to eat protein first and the rest is just what it is. Some days I'm eating healthier than others but by and by I'm on a good track for now. I'm down 30 lbs. and feel a new sense of myself. I have my first fill on Thursday and am psyched for a week of liquids/mushies again to jump start again. I thought I would be a closet bandster but everyone knows except for work people.
7/22/05 Had my monthly appointment last week and I'm down another 10 pounds this month! I'm at 206 I haven't been at this weight in over 5 years. I worn a pair of shorts yesterday that I havent been able to fit into in years and didn't have the heart to get rid of them. I am working so hard at this. I'm walking and swiming up a storm and I really think it's helping a great deal.
10/7/05 It's been a hell of a ride. I've become very mindfull of what I eat and when and have found a good routine for myself. I'm not the fatfree food kinds chick but I'm watching in other ways. I'm down to 189 this week and I feel like the home stretch is nearing. 39pounds to go. My kids are noticing my increased energy level and we're having more fun outdoors. 189 , I have on a size 12 jeans from 1998 and they have been my test pants all these years, so today I am wearing them with incredible pride!
Surgeon Info:
4/19/05 Pre surgicial testing scheduled for Thursday. Anna seemed really nice. I'm so looking forward to this. I've been on the message boards, asking questions to the MD staff. I'm ready ROAR!
I am viewing the next 6 months as a marathon. Get it off. walk, run, hike anything but get this weight off. I will be good with what I'm eating because I am ready - I will not live like this anymore. I deserve more!
4/21/05 Pre surgical testing. I am at 242 now. (hey -4lbs. this week) Getting everything into prespective. I have made a commitment to myself to see Willo the Psych at Dr. Garber's office for the next few months. I want this to be a wonderful "getting healthy" process for me, my husband and the kids. Yet I know there will be feelings and things that I will need to figure out on my journey. Bought new sneakers and will break them in after dinner!
5/1/05 Holding at 242, tomorrow I do clear liquids and Tuesday is the surgery. I'm still in a bit of deniel yet, although I'm sure the clear liquids will put things into motion for me. I asked for a pedimeter for mother's day so I can track my walking. I want to do 200 miles before my birthday on July 4. My challenge to myself!
6/14/05 WOW! I was walking deligently and now mixing in some swiming for fun. Although with 2 kids it's a workout. It's been six weeks. A time for healing and learning how my body reacts to this. It hasn't been all roses, I encountered a few bumps in the beginning. The one thing that remains with me is something Wilo said to me, stop thinking like you are dieting, you're not dieting, you are living. I'm not a very good rule follower and she put this into a good prospective for me. I am trying to eat protein first and the rest is just what it is. Some days I'm eating healthier than others but by and by I'm on a good track for now. I'm down 30 lbs. and feel a new sense of myself. I have my first fill on Thursday and am psyched for a week of liquids/mushies again to jump start again. I thought I would be a closet bandster but everyone knows except for work people.
7/22/05 Had my monthly appointment last week and I'm down another 10 pounds this month! I'm at 206 I haven't been at this weight in over 5 years. I worn a pair of shorts yesterday that I havent been able to fit into in years and didn't have the heart to get rid of them. I am working so hard at this. I'm walking and swiming up a storm and I really think it's helping a great deal.
10/7/05 It's been a hell of a ride. I've become very mindfull of what I eat and when and have found a good routine for myself. I'm not the fatfree food kinds chick but I'm watching in other ways. I'm down to 189 this week and I feel like the home stretch is nearing. 39pounds to go. My kids are noticing my increased energy level and we're having more fun outdoors. 189 , I have on a size 12 jeans from 1998 and they have been my test pants all these years, so today I am wearing them with incredible pride!
Surgeon Info: