~Beautiful One~
Moving right along!!
Dec 11, 2008
. Once again Im up to an early start, I was actually able to get alot done yesterday. After a minor set back with my truck battery I made it to da gym. I was really psyched to walk in and see the row of spin bikes, actually the same one I have but the commercial grade. I just think it would be better to do in a group. Its a trial basis for the next month, I missed yesterdays am session but plan to be there next week. Today I'm sticking to the treadmill and step aerobics at home.........prepare to return to work 2night!!
The Weather.............
Dec 10, 2008
.I have been more active with painting, and house stuff too, its amazing how much arm work goes into rolling paint on a wall.
Anyway my kids really encourage me when they see me slacking.........I don't want them to think it controls my life but it is important.
Ajai is doing well, her labs were a little off this month and she's back to getting injections........she actually handles it better than her mom.....lol, most of the time anyway.
The blogging for me is the accountability tool I need, in my field there is a saying to LIVE by......."If you didn't document it, then you didn't do it." It even holds true in the court of law. That being said I find that when I write things down, have a plan of action I stick to it.
I was up at 5am doing laundry and mopping, I did lay back down but now its up.......linen changes, marinade my meat for dinner, make the sides and to they gym for 1-1 1/2hours and the cable company. Back home more cleaning and organizing......yeah I have a slight OCD at times.......TTFN
Privacy for Now
Dec 03, 2008
There are sooo many things in my life that I am in the middle of re-evaluating.....my religion, my friends, my career choices and my weight loss goals. I often look at myself and feel like this great big loser, and not in a good way. I have come to the conclusion that it is time to get serious and re-commit myself. Over a year ago my daughter became very sick and the stress stopped my progress in its tracks. I became comfortable at that point. I have to the conclusion that I will never be a size 6 but I would be happy with losing the 20lbs I gained while on steroids and an additional 50 on top. I will keep my profile private until that time that I am where I want to be. I used to come to this site for information and encouragement, none of that is available anymore. I left the site for months before because of that. I have family and friends true enough but its not the same as someone who is truly experiencing the same things you are. I have decided to come to this site to track myself, make me accountable for me and to blog. If there is something I can get I will otherwise its whatever!
My Baby
Sep 26, 2008
. They do have the free Wi-Fi but they block some of my favorite shows on television, Law&Order mostly. They block Jerry Springer and Maury BUT thats actually doing me a FAVOR!!! The good thing is my cousin is my hairdresser so she will come to the my house if need be. I'll just take her last slot of the day........on a Saturday that could be late.
They just gave Ajai some pain meds and she is finally comfortable and resting!!
MAKING DECISIONS!!
Sep 25, 2008
Even without looking at my profile most know that I have been having ongoing problems with my place of employment. With all things in life WE must decide when enough is enough. I'm sure we have all sit back and watch friends and family go through a series of problems with children, loved ones, jobs, men etc. etc. They will stop it when they are tired, no matter what you say. Well I am TIRED, I had to pray, pray and pray some more and I have finally made the decision to move on.
I am often asked why do I stay?? They all say you can work anywhere, which is true. I love my degree and all the job security it brings. Like most people I can be stubborn and sometimes you can hurt yourself more than others!! I am still coming to the realization that I will not be returning to work with the State of Michigan. I am currently on a leave, and as I said this time has given me not only a break but time. The time to reflect, meditate and move forward. I guess maybe writing helps to confirm it for me. LOL.
I have been offered sooooooo many excellent positions and I have prayed about what would be the best for me and my family. With that being said I will continue to pray for guidance with that and the continuation of my journey. Thanks to all my friends and family that have endured this time with me, listened to me complain and moan daily.
The things that don't kill us definitely makes us stronger!!!
DO NOT BE MISLED!!! BAD ASSOCIATION SPOILS USEFUL HABITS~ 1 CORINTHIANS 15:33
Working hard............I want results!!!!!!!!!!!!
Sep 20, 2008
ITS A SMALL WORLD AFTER ALL!!
Sep 14, 2008
I recently seen a fellow post op and forum member of BAF at a place of business. I had seen her profile on several occasions. I admired her results. I did find some of her pics a little much even vulgar at times. I felt that if she was comfortable with the displays........I really shouldn't care and didn't.
When I seen her, I was like hey how are you, are yo on OH? She lied and that's OK.
I did think long and hard about closing my profile down. I asked myself would I feel that way if someone asked me that?? I dont keep my surgery a secret though. Maybe she does and that is truly her right.
My background as a nurse makes it that much easier for me to speak, advocate and educate about the procedure.
I am FINALLY seriously contemplating leaving my job and in looking into new positions I still may close my profile for a while during my interview and job search process.
I guess I thought just because my profile was here to guide, help, educate and encourage others in a very difficult decision and on a very difficult journey that everyone else had theirs for the same reason.
I KNOW that some do, so I am re opening my profile to my friends for right now.
Thanks for the support as I continue to fight this battle.
THE WAGON PLAN
Sep 02, 2008
I've been following the principles of the wagon plan formulated by James H, one of the "losers" I met on BAF. He is very helpful and he is passionate about the weight loss battle. He's motivational.
As I stated in my previous post I was slowly finding my way back. I made a decision to renew my gym membership, and I've starting going regular again. 
I plan to make it 4 days a week. 
I've started my protein drinks again, usually 2 a day and I start my day with an ACHIEVE ONE, cold
coffee, I love it!!
I say all this to say I've dropped 6 pounds!! 
I am again feeling that maybe just maybe I will reach my personal goal, my surgeons goal would make me look
.
As life goes on, I wish us all well as we continue the daily struggle to fight obesity.
Slowly but SURELY!!!
Aug 09, 2008
LIFE AS IT IS!
Jun 07, 2008
, just dealing with LIFE!! I am still dealing with my daughters illness and waiting on a suitable donor for her. My doctor had me on steroids and I gained almost 20 lbs
, yeah I know on top of the stall I was already experiencing. I had almost decided to give up, but I cant. I have been reconciled with my husband for some time now, I'm back to an exercise routine, not as rigorous as I'd like but its a start. Its great to have the help I need just so that I can again have the "ME" time and the time to exercise again.
I wanted to give a little update as it has been almost 7 months and I really haven't been on OH but a few times. Its nice to be back for those that have positive support and encouragement to share.
