dev321
Hard decision
Sep 23, 2009
I am going to gastric bypass surgery in 2 months. I have a mixture of emotions, fear, excitement, and wondering.I am a little worried of who skinny me is, simply because it has been over 20 years since that person existed. The fear of having to put me first again is new territory.
My 10 year ofd daughter asked me if I could die, My other two children immediatly stopped what they were doing wanting to know what my answer would be. Wow, now I have to face what one of my fears would be.
Without revealing an ounce of what I felt inside, I told them the truth that this surgery is a big deal, that with any surgery there is an element of risk.
However, you cannot let the fear of unknown hold you back in life, sometimes you just have to do it to find out, success or failure at least you tried.
Without my surgery, the chances of me growing old would be reduced because being obese, and having high blood pressure, I would most likely have a heart attach and if that happened I would probably die.
With having the surgery I will decrease my chances of having a heart attach, I will get healthy, I will not be so whooped when I get home from work. I will be more active and we will be a stronger healtheir family.
When I tucked my oldest daughter in she wanted to know who was going to feed them cause Daddy can't cook.
My middle one was trying hard to be a big girl but her tears brimmed when she said she knew why I had to go away for a few days but she was going to miss me.
My son was relieved the food issue was taken care of, and happy that I will be able to bike riding with him